MEETING MY MOTHER AND FATHER IN SPIRIT IN THE BULK FOOD STORE! Yesterday I am shopping for bulk food in Kakulas Brothers Perth city and find myself standing next to Clara. She has been on a working holiday in Australia and is about to return to Paris in three weeks. What a beautiful soul. I find myself asking her if she will come back to Australia and she responds by saying she doesn't think so. I respond: "You never know where life will take you, you might meet the love of your life tomorrow and everything would change." I walk around the stand behind her and then the truth dawns on my mind. I say to Clara: "You have already met the love of your life, she looks back at you in the mirror every morning." I walk back to stand beside her and share the wisdom that has taken me a lifetime to learn. I tell her that love can never be found outside of yourself.
The way to find real love and happiness is to fill your own heart until it is overflowing and you must then give that overflow of love. You then no longer need to get love - you already would have a heart that is full. Relationships are not about getting love, but giving love from a full heart. I am not talking about giving until the well runs dry! First one must work on letting go of the idea that love can be found outside of the self anywhere. It can be reflected back to you when you are open. Life always brings you a mirror of your own heart. We only ever hurt ourselves in all of our expectations of finding something outside of us to make us feel loved and happy. No one can fill the empty holes in our hearts, that is an inside job.
When Clara told me her name, my heart smiled a very wide smile, for that was my mother's first name. My mother passed away when I was only 12 years of age. Yet she turns up everywhere! There she was in the store and I got the opportunity to remind myself of real love. Right there in that precious moment, the love wisdom I offered Clara was for the ONE LOVE we all are. My mother smiles through all smiles and my heart danced yesterday to see her smile.
I finally go to the counter and purchase my bulk food and the lovely young lady serving me makes a comment about the organic Rapadura sugar I am buying. I tell her I am making a carrot cake with it for my grandson's birthday on Sunday. We start up a conversation about childhood memories of birthday cakes. I talk about the eulogy I wrote for my father's funeral service in July last year and how it was an opportunity for me to share some beautiful memories. I talk about how my father became so gracious in the last years of his life and how he thanked everyone and was so grateful for those who cared for him as he became vulnerable and dependent. He used to look into my eyes with so much Light and Love and tell me he loved me. I tell the two young ladies serving me and listening with their hearts that these memories sustain me now. One of them says: "That's so beautiful, you are making me cry." I say: "My father didn't die, he is here right now with all of that Light and Love". WOW, my Mother and my Father at Kakulas Brothers store! What a miraculous gift! And I thought I was going to buy food for just my body. Well I hadn't counted on this SOUL FOOD. My parting words were: "Tell Evan Kakulas that he employs beautiful souls!"
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 16.5.2019)
I almost needed a pair of
sunglasses to shade my eyes from the lovely light that shone from Beverley’s beautiful Being. As I walked past this store at my local shopping centre, I saw the name 'Bright Eyes’ and in my mind I heard the song ‘Bright Eyes’ by Art Garfunkel from the movie ‘Watership Down'. I sang the verse out loud to Beverley – “Bright eyes, burning like fire”. She came out of the store and we chatted about the uplifting energy that singing and music brings. I shared with her my story of how many amazing encounters I have had when I allowed the songs that come into my mind a voice! I am no singer, yet the joyful encounters I have had as a result of letting myself sing out loud have been incredibly beautiful. We can all sing even if we are not good at it! Singing is a way of joining with others that bypasses the usual conversations.
I tell her that I am often inspired by people I meet in ordinary life and have extraordinary experiences with them. We talked about the challenges that life can give us and how we can deal with them. I tell her that TRUST is the answer. T.oR.elyU.ponS.piritT.otally. When life seemingly takes things away from us, we can trust that all our needs will be met when we follow our Heart. Following our Heart may mean letting go of all that we have valued and trusting that we will find the things of true value. I chatted to Beverley about the dent I had accidentally made on my car a few days ago and she tells me she had one repaired recently and gives me the name and number of the repairer. How do I know what anything is for? What seems to be bad may lead to some extraordinary encounters. It’s only ‘bad’ if my mind wants to make it so, because the mind cannot see the larger picture. It only sees a snapshot of a tiny tick in time. Like a tiny piece in a huge puzzle that cannot even begin to show the finished image of the puzzle. I do know that singing out loud led to my having a wonderful moment of ‘real’ loving friendship with Beverley and a reminder that I am never alone. Love shines out of Bright Eyes everywhere I go when I listen to my Heart.
PS Is it a coincidence that a friend called me from interstate several hours later to tell me about a choir that she had attended today and that maybe there is a branch of them in my area? I think it’s time to sing a little more again.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 27.03.2019)
STEP ONE of 12 STEPS TO LOVING THE SELF:
We realise that we were giving our power away to the belief that Love exists outside of ourselves.
A STEP ONE STORY:
Your pain has a message for you. See it as a dear friend who loves you deeply and wants you to heal and be happy. Your birthright is happiness. When you have pain – mental, emotional or physical, it has come to tell you that you are out of alignment with your very own essence. You have separated from the pure essence of LOVE that you are. You have allowed the mind to take you away from the Truth in your Heart. It’s okay. Be with the pain, feel it fully and let it guide you to finding a way out of it. You will be shown a way if you truly want to heal. You may read something, see a video/movie, hear something on the radio/TV, meet someone and find a program/group/retreat or a friendship/relationship that will support your healing.
I love how life presents me with my pain teachers in such unexpected ways. One of my greatest pains has been giving so much of myself to others, that I left myself out of the line of loving care! My healing journey has been about coming out of unconscious doing and recognising what I have been doing and why. I began to see the ways I ‘medicated’ my pain and kept it pushed deep down. The ‘medicating’ ended up making the whole pain issue worse until eventually I woke up and said: “ENOUGH!”. That was the moment of surrender and then the doors of healing swung wide open. I never imagined the journey I would take. It wasn’t always a smooth highway, more like a very rough unsealed track with lots of potholes, stones I tripped over and little detours that led me off the healing track for a while. The biggest ‘medicating’ pain relief for me was to try and ‘save’ other people’s pain – the ‘saviour syndrome’! Of course, that’s a ploy of my mind to distract me from the real source of the pain. The pain of being disconnected from the love I am and from loving my very vulnerable humanity. Everyone else seemed more important. I was very loved by those I ‘rescued’ and that made me feel happy. I was never really happy within myself. It was all from seeking outside of myself for the LOVE that could only be found within. It was like I had turned my back on a beautiful small child and left her in the middle of New York City all alone. The one who really needed rescuing was myself.
This morning a ‘pain teacher’ arrived on my morning beach walk. He was just stepping out of the water and we greeted each other. He began chatting to me about his love of beach swimming and how he kept himself fit. He told me he was 83 years of age! I was impressed and told him that I’d seen men in their 60’s who looked like him. He threw his head back and laughed joyfully. He inspired me to keep going on my new fitness plan to stay active in my aging years. He told me that he’d had a fall a while ago from his pushbike and had injured his shoulder and it still caused him pain. That’s when my unconscious ‘saviour syndrome’ kicked in. I asked him if he’d heard of Bowen therapy. He said he hadn’t heard of it. I responded by telling him he should find himself a therapist. With that statement he said: “NO, I LIKE MY PAIN” smiled and sprinted off up the beach! LOL, I laughed inside. Once upon a time, long ago, I would have felt pain and rejection in such an instance. I recognised that I’d temporarily gone to sleep (become unconscious) and had seen the pain in someone else that I wanted to ‘fix’. The Truth is that pain is not mine to fix and I could use this energy to work on deeper pain within myself! I realised on a very deep level that some people are really comfortable with their pain. It has ‘payoffs’ for them. It gets them attention and especially attention from ‘rescuers’. They probably get a lot of their ‘neediness’ attended to and don’t have to take responsibility for themselves. I learned that I don’t need to offer advice to anyone who hasn’t asked for it. Or I could ask first: “Would you like to know how you could heal it with natural therapies?” I could check in with my own heart first before opening my mouth! My heart will always guide me as to what to say or do for anyone. I went away so very grateful for being given a ‘pain healing teacher’ in this beautiful way. My heart felt joy and gratitude. Life is always giving us exactly everything we need to heal from pain. We can choose to watch/listen/learn or NOT!
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 19.3.2019)
One word I suggest removing from your vocabulary is: 'SHOULD'. That word just makes everything wrong. It is a judgement. Judgements against yourself will keep you stuck forever. Start observing the thoughts that cross your mind. Begin saying in your mind: "I AM the ONE observing all these things happening." Once you truly begin to do this, then get up, sing and dance and celebrate that you have seen that YOU ARE THE ONE observing and not the figure acting out in this 'dream' we call life. That is what I keep doing and then bit by bit the mind changes into a much more peaceful space of acceptance. It only happens when the psyche is good and ready. Then you begin to notice that what you observe is just a bunch of old conditioned thoughts. They are not the Truth. Gradually you learn to see them for what they are and you no longer get caught up in them. Be kind, loving and forgiving for you are already PERFECTLY IMPERFECT. You are perfection playing itself out.
~Eileen Dielesen (3.3.2019)
LOVE ARRIVES IN A FUR COAT. This morning I went to the beach for a long walk and on the way back decided to sit on the shore for a while watching the waves. Walking in front of me were a couple with a beautiful light brown and white border collie. As happens to me all the time....the dog stopped and tried to come up to me, but the woman pulled on the lead and kept on walking. I could 'feel' the dog's desire to come and shower me with LOVE. Further along the beach I noticed the woman walking back on her own and her partner was walking with the dog off the lead. Then I heard him calling 'Gypsy' and Gypsy was running towards me at break neck speed! I laughed inside, because I knew she would come and shower me with a loving big hug. I was delighted! Sure enough she nearly bowled me over and gave me an amazing big warm loving hug. My heart just danced with the JOY of LOVE being reflected back to me in the form of a fur coat! I felt honoured, seen and unconditionally loved. What a gift! The man called: 'Gypsy' and she raced back as he waved a thank you at me. I got up a short while later and saw the woman was coming back. She stopped and apologised for 'Gypsy's' behaviour. I told her I had an affinity with dogs, they always 'misbehaved' and would run up and honour me with LOVE. I told her I was honoured and she was so relieved. LOVE is everywhere. It is in YOU and when you honour what YOU ARE, then everyone and everything outside of you will begin to SHINE and bow before you in reverance to the LOVE you are. LOVE attracts LOVE.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 3.3.2019)
Life isn't always easy but you don't have to take it personally.Turn your eyes towards the LIGHT. There is always another way to view life. When things look dark and you feel pain.....then let yourself feel it fully and WATCH the story that unfolds in your mind. Don't let yourself become a victim in that story. Just watch it and remind yourself that you can just simply FEEL what you feel - sadness, anger, disappointment and hurt, but running the story is optional.
Yesterday I had the opportunity to join with 'strangers' not once, but TWICE to remind me that my stories are just that: STORIES! I make them up. In the first instance I was on a bus and a woman boarded and sat in the seat opposite me. We laughed our heads off and the bus driver joined in our conversation! I was telling them that I could make a true 'Days of Our Lives' drama story about the issues happening in my life and then I said the above words to them: "Life isn't always easy but you don't have to take it personally." I said out loud: "I like those words, I am going to write them down!" Ha ha! When the woman left the bus I wished her a magical day and she looked at me with great joy in her eyes and said: "Meeting you has already made it a magical day." The second time I was reminded when I was in a store waiting in a long queue and was chatting to the man in front of me. A woman joined the queue and I said to her: "You can join our conversation". She began by making up a story of why there was only one shop assistant serving. She had decided that all the staff had gone out to a lunch because the shop next door was also short staffed. I laughed and said that's a good story! Then the man in front of me said that he thought that a few of the staff had left early to go away for the long weekend. The woman immediately said: "I think you are on to something, that's probably it." We all laughed when I said: "That's a good story!" When I got to the front of the line another shop assistant turned up and I turned to the woman next to me and said: "She has probably just come back from the toilet!" We laughed out loud! Then the man in front of me turned to me as he was leaving and said: "You should be a writer!" I smiled and told him I was! So here it is....my writing for today! I hope you see that your stories can make you miserable or they can be seen for what they are...just stories! Turn your eyes towards the LIGHT and you will never believe your suffering stories again! You will probably end up laughing instead of crying!
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 2.03.2019)
MY FAMILY ARE EVERYWHERE I GO AND I AM NEVER ALONE, NOR DO I FEEL LONELY. When you live with a wide open heart then you find your friends and family wherever you are. There just are no strangers - only friends and family you have never met. It was a magic and miraculous day for me yesterday, in what most people would consider an ordinary life. Firstly I headed off to the city on the train to see a new homeopath. This was the first time I had met his man. It was a meeting filled with joy as he tells me how wonderful it is to meet someone who understands the reasons for working with the body's natural immune responses and understanding the deep truth of holistic healing. Later I found myself in a store and as I was looking around an elderly man came in accompanied by his mature age son. His son was so kind, helpful and gentle towards his father. He reminded me of the time with my father in his last years. I told this man what a beautiful son he was to look after his father with so much loving kindness. He had a shocked look on his face. I guess we don't often tell people the beautiful things we see, nor do we honour each other as much as we could. Following that I headed home on the train and along the way a beautiful man sat next to me. We had a delightful conversation about the JOY of being free spirits and being ourselves. We laughed a lot. As he got up to leave at his station I extended my hand and we shook hands as I told him it was a JOY to have met him. The smile on his face was priceless. My family is everywhere I am. This sharing was prompted by a 'memory' of a year ago that Facebook posted today. I thought I'd share it with you again...
"On the coach to Margaret River this evening and watching the sun set as we pass through Australind. I am sitting next to a beautiful young man named Pramod who came here from Nepal 3 years ago. We talked about family, community and human connectedness. He told me when he travels alone he always ends up having older women next to him who connect. I tell him I never had a son so we agree that for the short time we are traveling together I will be his mother and he will be my son. It is a beautiful thing for me to have a wide open heart that allows everyone to be my family. I am never alone and my glorious sons are everywhere. I tell Pramod that he will find his mother will turn up everywhere! Feeling grateful and blessed." 💖
Truly my life is blessed and filled with JOY in the ordinary. What matters is the heart connections. Dare to connect with someone you 'don't' know from your heart today. I promise you will transform the ordinary into the extraordinary.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 23.02.2019)
STEP 4 of 12 STEPS TO LOVING THE SELF:
"We took a searching & courageous inventory of all the ways we judge ourselves or others or allowed ourselves to feel like a victim, while loving & accepting ourselves."
STEP 4 STORY:
GIVING UP VICTIM/POOR ME/COMPLAINING STORIES....
I have been looking at how awful I feel when I finish whining and complaining about some perceived problem in my life. I am OVER my own stories that interpret life from this perspective! I made a decision to STOP IT! Yes - simple - STOP IT! Now that is easier said than done! I watch how the ego mind comes up with all sorts of scenarios to pull me back into misery! Yesterday I received a message on my phone to contact the bank to make an appointment to sign a form. Something I thought would be simple! The staff member gave me a number to call and asked me to make an appointment to see a consultant. I phoned the number and YESSSS.... it was one of those choose five different options, none of which suited me. I listened to them all twice and then chose one that I thought might be suitable. Then I got another five different options and finally I hear a ring and then - yes you guessed it - the message: "All of our consultants are currently busy taking other calls and we will answer your call shortly." I was a on a short work break and after a few minutes had to hang up. I was annoyed! All I had to do was sign a form that had been forwarded from another branch. Or so I thought! My mind began running stories. I decided it was easier to just go to the bank and ask to sign the form. After work I tried phoning again - just to add more misery to the already existing misery ha ha! I headed to the bank and I watched my mind saying: "I will tell them how annoyed I was by their phone system - I just wanted to be put through to a branch!". Then I caught it: "Whiney, complainer, poor me mind". I let go of that story and decided to just walk into the bank and ask to sign the form. That is exactly what I did. The customer service officer went away, printed out a form and invited me into an office to fill out a form. Then up came annoyed, complaining, whining angry mind again. I heard my voice snapping as I said: "I can't even fill this form out because I don't have all the information". Then I caught those thoughts, calmed down and began filling out the form providing all the information I could. The customer service officer became really helpful and together we filled out the form and I signed it. We then had a laugh about life and I told her that this should have all been sorted out on a previous visit and I guessed that the person was new and didn't know the procedure. She said: "Most likely" and I felt joy as I laughed. To argue with reality destroys my own peace of mind! I am OVER IT! I want peace more than anything else and I will watch with vigilance that part of my mind that wants to be hang on to control and be: "A POOR ME"! The interesting thing is that when one makes a resolution to let go of the ego mind stories - it ups its anti and all sorts of scenarios arise to challenge one's resolve. I am on to that! The ego has been master for a very long time and it is not going to let go that easily and succumb to servant role. I left the bank wishing the customer service officer a wonderful weekend and she wished me the same. It will be if I choose peace over misery! <3
~Eileen Dielesen (6.10.2018)
STEP 12 of 12 Steps to Loving the Self:
"Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of following these steps, we automatically love others as we love ourselves and carry this message to those who still suffer."
A TRUE STORY RELATED TO STEP 12:
"Yesterday I was standing back a few metres from the ATM machine waiting to use it. A man came up and asked me if I was waiting and then stood behind me saying to me that I could stand closer to the ATM machine. I began telling him about my experience once when I went up to an ATM machine to take out a large amount of cash for an overseas holiday. A man stood nearby and my intuition didn't feel good about his presence. I decided to not take out the cash and go to another ATM machine instead. When I got into my car where my daughter was waiting she gave out a huge sigh of relief saying she also had a bad feeling and was so glad I'd listened to my intuition. I told this man yesterday that no matter what happens, we can still have love and respect for those who do things we deem evil. I shared with him a story that had been told to me many years ago by a man who had been held at knifepoint. He was asked to hand his wallet over. He decided to act from LOVE instead of FEAR. He got his wallet out opened it and said to the robber: "I've only got ten dollars, but you can have it because I can see you need it more than me." The robber put his knife down took the ten dollars and began apologising profusely explaining that he really needed it. The man with the wallet then extended his hand to the robber for a handshake telling him his name and saying it was nice to meet you and wishing him well in his life and saying he hoped things would get better for him. We really don't know what has happened to someone to make them so desperate they have to rob others, but it usually stems from a life of pain and suffering. No one who has been brought up with real LOVE would act this way. We are all born innocent. It can sometimes go on for generations. One thing I do know, JUDGEMENT never resolves anything and is a form of ATTACK. It is the very base cause of all war and conflict in the world. We can bring world peace only when we have it in our own minds and hearts towards everyone. To forgive everyone is to forgive the ONE SELF we all are in essence. The man I shared this story with then says: "Well there are people who are acting crazy on drugs and you have to be careful." Yes, one needs to practice discernment and presence. If you are present and you listen to your intuition and act on your inner guidance all will be well. If you are to experience being robbed - you can also use that as an opportunity to extend LOVE. It could be the perfect suffering lesson for your own spiritual awakening and I have some of those stories to share too! The choice is always yours. LOVE is the ANSWER to all the suffering of this world. JUDGEMENT never heals anything ever! I left that man just loving him and who knows what miracle may happen in his mind and heart. My job is to forgive everything and everyone and extend LOVE to all. The only evil is JUDGEMENT and that takes place in my own mind.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 27.7.18)
Eileen is always inspired by the voice of Love within her. May our hearts always be joined as ONE in Love and through the words that appear on these pages may you feel the light and Love she has for you.