LET US NOT CRITICISE, JUDGE, ATTACK AND SHAME OR MAKE ANYONE ELSE WRONG INCLUDING OURSELVES....
It's always the ego's thoughts in the mind that thinks it knows what is right and wrong. Let us see the LOVE beyond the appearances. Attack NEVER ever transformed anything. The moment we attack we are at war. Wars start in the mind. We are at war with the thoughts in our own mind. Of course I am not saying be a doormat and not speak out, but please be guided by your inner voice - by your Heart and not your head. Never leave anyone and I mean anyone including yourself, out of your Heart. You may well have to close the door to having them in your life, but don't judge them and make them wrong . Just accept they came to teach you something. Some of my most powerful teachers have been the most painful of all. They taught me to see that I still believed that parts of me weren’t lovable. I carried toxic shame about my so called imperfections. What others do is none of my business. What I do is my business. Sometimes that means taking action and sometimes it means walking away and letting go. Sometimes I have to accept that I need to go away and be quiet and spend time working through feelings by myself and learning to nurture and care for myself. Learning to create an inner healthy nurturing parent for myself.
I have used relationships to try and get all my needs met, when it was never healthy nor realistic to think the other person could meet all those needs. It was not their job to meet all the needs of an insatiable needy child. It was nobody’s fault. It was not my fault. It was not my parents fault. It was now my responsibility to grow an inner nurturing and loving self that I could depend on. It was my responsibility once I became aware. It was my responsibility to forgive everyone for all the hurts I perceived they inflicted on me. It was my responsibility to accept that everyone is perfectly imperfect. It was my responsibility to finally totally forgive myself. I did not know how to act until the moment arrived. It was my responsibility to make time to sit awhile and surrender all to God/Love/Higher Power and then wait for guidance. I no longer wanted to think the little 'I know mind' was right. I waited and my answers always came. I had to learn to be patient and never act impulsively out of anger or self-righteousness, as that was always the ego mind and it usually spoke loudly and first. It was my responsibility to work through my angry feelings without projecting them onto others and blaming them for how I felt. I learned to act instead of react.
I HAVE LEARNED TO HEAL WITH……
BREATH, WAIT, PRAY, LOVE.
I still react! I am perfectly imperfect and I am beautiful as I AM. I AM LOVE and I am experiencing myself as this imperfect human and it’s a magnificent ride in all of its ups and downs.
I am on a journey ‘Home’ and we go together. HOLD MY HAND AND FORGIVE ME as I wobble my way 'home' to forgiving everyone including myself.
“WE’RE ALL JUST WALKING EACH OTHER HOME” is a wonderful quote by Ram Dass that came to mind several years ago when I thought about what happened during the phone conversation I had with the health insurance company. I wrote:
“I have moved to West Australia from Queensland and must now pay for ambulance cover. I chose a company that I thought offered a good deal and then began the challenge on the phone. I was passed from one to department to another and when the third person wanted to pass me on to someone else I felt the peace draining away and wanted to put the phone down. I realised in that moment that I had a choice to be peaceful or not and I chose peace (reluctantly!). I agreed to be transferred to a fourth person! I am so glad I did. This young man and I ended up laughing a lot over the insanity of life and at the end of the call he thanked me because up until I spoke to him he said he had been having a really crap morning and I had cheered him up. He said it was just what he needed. Do I know what anything is for???? No! One thing that stood out from this was that I was walking with my brother home to peace and JOY was the symptom that arose!”
Ahhhh The JOY of Amazing Divinely Guided Miracle Meetings!
Below is a repost of an experience I had a few years ago. It reminded me of how challenging it is to truly follow the Wholly Spirit's voice within you. That voice is available to all of us. Follow it and you will find your life changing in joyous and miraculous ways. Ignore it and you will find misery. It has been speaking to us always, but we do not always follow and that's ok too. I have been criticised, attacked and judged for sharing my Wholly Spirit guided experiences. Over time I came to let go of taking anything personally, because the ego will always rear its ugly head to keep me in its clutches of misery. There were times that I knew others were judging my sharings, but it didn't hurt me because it was between me and Wholly Spirit. Those so called judgers were the voice of ego and ego is FEAR! Fear of what others will think. Fear of being rejected. Fear of being alone. Fear of not being good enough. Fear of LOVE/GOD! Fear of happiness. Fear of JOY. Fear of.......... (add your own here)! So here is a beautiful day in my past of following the Wholly Spirit's guidance and finding happiness! I was posting my happy experiences on Facebook for 100 days and she agreed to become one day's experience story.
"I received a phone call this morning from a friend who I do not know very well, inviting me to go have a coffee and sit in the warm sun at the beach cafe. I suggested a time to meet which was perfect for the divinely orchestrated meeting we were to have. We moved a table out into the sun and when I turned around I felt this huge bubble of HAPPY rise up in my Heart when I saw Christine....she had these cute sunglasses on that matched her green top and a funky necklace and well who knows why .. but I felt so happy and told her so. I boldly asked her if I could take her picture for this 100 happy days sharing (I'm getting bolder at asking!) and she agreed immediately. We ordered our food and drinks and when we returned I decided to ask Christine to join us and she happily said: 'Yes'. The miracle was that my friend was able to give Christine so much information and a recommendation to see a health specialist, as they both had the same medical issues! Christine was so happy to find out about all these amazing treatments that had benefited my friend so much and kept saying...'It must have been meant to be, this meeting today'. My new friend was amazed by what had happened and I just said: 'Welcome to my amazing miraculous life'! I am so grateful for my spiritual path for it has given me this amazing license to spread the JOY in my Heart and let go of all inhibitions and simply TRUST the Wholly Spirit's voice within me to guide me in all of my decisions. I AM FREE!"
Love Eileen Dielesen
Allowing all of our FEELINGS expression, opens the portal to living an AUTHENTIC and JOY filled life. Our feelings are our deepest heart's intuitive message and calling. To open to them, give them space and listen to what they are telling us, is our very own Soul's longing, calling us home to our inner peace sanctuary. If you don't know what steps to take in your life, listen to your feelings. Let them be the compass of your life. Sometimes feelings arise in response to old pain that has never been given the space to be held in safety and trust. Be that for yourself now. Hold that space and don't run stories about it. Just be with the feeling. Let yourself fully feel it and it will pass, making space for the JOY of living in the moment free of all past repressed feelings weighing your Spirit down.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 7.8.020)
I arrived at the Doctor's Surgery for my appointment this morning and was informed that the Doctor was running about 30 minutes late. No problem I told the receptionist, I will go and do and some shopping and come back. How I love my life when I am in my 'right mind' of just being LOVE and JOY not getting upset and resisting what is happening. Everything flows joyfully! I head to the supermarket where I have an absolutely joyful chat with the young man who is packing the shelves in the fruit and vegetable section. We talk about being in the 'right mind' and how life then brings us a mirror of our mind with joyful and loving encounters with people. I only need a couple of things in the supermarket, so I have some time to just browse around the shopping centre. I find myself looking in the window of the gift store that I have walked by many times and never considered going in for a look. I heard my inner voice say: "Go in just for a look, a moment to enjoy looking at lovely things." I felt joyful at the thought of just enjoying looking! I found myself at the counter after a few minutes where I spotted a little box of Sri Chinmoy inspirational cards. These beautiful cards are offered freely and I have several at home. I pulled some out of the box to have a look and then Sue turned up in front of me and asked if she could help me. I told her I loved these little sayings and I had just come in to have a look at beautiful things. We chatted about these lovely inspirational cards and I chose one that said: "The human is me loves to live. The divine in me lives to love." Today I was loving to live so that I could share the divine love in me. Then a joyful thought arrived to extend a gift to Sue of one of my own little inspirational 'pearls of wisdom' scrolls that I freely give away. Sue was delighted and then I noticed her beautiful heart necklace. I was inspired to take a photo to share with you this ordinary moment of living in the LOVE and JOY of our birthright in the ordinary moments of a daily life. Sue left to buy herself a coffee and then I continued looking around at all the beautiful things. I spotted a little hanging angel ornament with the words written on her: "Home is where your Joy and Love is shared". Yesssssssssss it is! Home is in the place I am in any moment, where my Joy and Loved is shared. In that moment I was truly 'HOME'. Home is a place inside my mind and Heart where my true Self abides in Love and Joy. I was overcome with LOVE and JOY as the thought arrived that I could buy myself this little Angel as a gift for myself! I wanted to jump with JOY as I said out loud to Darryl who was serving at the counter that I was going to buy myself a present! I almost never buy myself 'gifts'! When I arrived at the counter, the phone rang and it was the Doctor's receptionist telling me I was next in line to see the Doctor. I was in the flow of Divine Love and Joy where life flows effortlessly and every moment is used in service to the real abiding LOVE and JOY in my mind and Heart. It is really very simple when you live like a child in the NOW moment.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 24.7.2020)
In July 2016 I had an amazing encounter with an awakened Soul and I wrote: "Life just keeps on presenting me with incredible miraculous encounters. I went to meet a future house sit owner and was introduced to Moss his live in house sitter. We had the most amazing conversation filled with the JOY of meeting a brother in the LIGHT. Moss asked me where I was from and as usual I said: 'The same place as you - Heaven!' Well that opened up Moss and he told me about his incredible healing of a serious physical ailment that happened by his walking away from the medical establishment and saying a prayer to whatever Higher Power was out there! His prayer was: "Either kill me or cure me". He received the cure which took him on a long walk with no sleep for weeks and a spiritual awakening where he recognised that there was no illness, just the perfection of what wanted to happen to transform us. He talked about the letting go of all knowledge (lies of the ego mind) and coming into a quiet mind that has only the thoughts of God. He talked about Jesus' life and was clear that he was not a Christian. He was a man who had awoken from the dream and was no longer asleep. He had come to an experience of the Truth and you can only truly understand that when you have had that. You cannot know it through knowledge. He said that you just have to look at the caterpillars - they do not have to know anything, they just go through the process and come out as a butterfly that can no longer hang out with caterpillars! I was so blessed and de-LIGHTED to meet a fellow butterfly (although my wings are still a bit stuck together!)"
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 21.7.2016)
A BEAUTIFUL MEMORY AND REMINDER THAT IT'S NOT WHAT I KNOW...BUT HOW I LIVE THAT MATTERS....
Day 154 Eileen's epic JOY JOURNEY of TRUST....a miraculous day. I received a phone call from a woman whom I have met only once a few years ago. She was listening to her inner guidance to call me. I was grateful, she is a mighty companion sent from the ONE HEART we share. We had a very long conversation and talked about what it means to BE LOVE and SEE LOVE. We talked about meeting others where they were in their own understanding. It was a lovely message that confirmed what I talked about yesterday and my commitment to the Fifth Agreement: "Be skeptical but learn to listen". I shared with her how I had met Don Miguel Ruiz who wrote the Four Agreements and the Fifth Agreement. I met him in Mexico for a retreat in 2012. That whole retreat was a wonderful experience in that I grew bored of listening to his message. That was the lesson, it was time to let go of the intellectual seeker within my mind who was trying to understand what spiritual awakening was. I recognised I was living it and I no longer needed to understand something that must be experienced. The thing that stood out with Don Miguel Ruiz was that he was a living demonstration of what that looks like. He was such a loving, gracious and humble man. In his presence you knew he was not judging you and you felt the pure presence of LOVE. A true mark of a fine spiritual teacher is one who lives what he points you towards. The best teacher is one who simply is a living example of what they teach. Like children, we copy what our parents live! Thank you Pappa Miguel Angel Ruiz.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 16.7.2016)
Today.........I choose to see only the pure heart of LOVE in everyone. It is the essence of every single one of us. We were all born pure and what happens along the way is conditioning of our minds by others and our culture. Basically we are taught how to see with a judgmental mind. We are fed stories and we believe them because we are innocent blank slates. If I want to heal, then this is the way....to see only LOVE in everything and everyone, for then I will remember that I too am LOVE and only LOVE. It is a journey of returning to the innocence I was born with. WE ARE THE ANSWER - YOU right here, right now in this very precious moment can change the world by seeing only the pure innocent LOVE behind all the seeming nightmares and problems. Look past them all - it's the only way to change the world because the world is in your conditioned mind. It is there where you 'see'. Make your vision beautiful for you do it for all of us. Do not believe in the misery, suffering and pain. This does not mean we do not offer empathy and practical help where possible. It does mean that we do not forget to see the LOVE behind all the suffering. We do not heal alone ever!
~Eileen Dielesen (Copyright 25.1.2020)
I FEARED THE GRIEF WOULD KILL ME. In truth, grief held the gold. Each tear became a river and I learned to surrender into its flow. I now ride along its tranquil water enjoying the magic scenery as I go. I cried for a very long time. I cried for all the losses in my childhood, the death of loved ones, two broken marriages and untold relationships. I cried for the lost career opportunities, the years lost to addiction and finally I cried for the loss of my Self. I am at peace now, the anxiety that pounded in my Heart was just the pain I didn't allow a space for. It held my most precious gift and I ran from it in fear. I didn't die, I gave birth to my magnificent free Self.
The road to spiritual awakening is not a smooth highway. It is full of pot holes, treacherous corners, steep curves and dangerous climbs. A human person does not awaken, it is the mind that awakens to the Truth. It is the deep attachment to the personal self and the body that needs to be let go of in order to awaken to the Truth. The attachment to the story of a personal self is the largest boulder standing in the way of the steep rise to the top of the mountain. Your mind has the power to move that boulder and when you want spiritual awakening and freedom more than anything else, you will focus the power in your mind for no other purpose. A personal self and a body will rot and die, but what you are is not this, you are pure spirit of LOVE and this is where your true JOY and abundance lies. Allow all the attachments to the things of the world to pass through you for they are mere shadows playing in the movie called 'My Life' and the projector is in your mind. When you let go of the attachments which are in your mind, there will be no images on the film and the projector will simply SHINE BRIGHT LIGHT! All the dark shadows will disappear, for they were only created by your thoughts of worldly attachments. I LOVE YOU.
~Eileen Dielesen (Copyright 4.5.2020)
‘YOUR STRENGTH LIES IN YOUR VULNERABILITY’. Many years ago I began saying to those who were seeking healing and peace of mind....'Your strength lies in your vulnerability'. We must visit the places where the feelings were never allowed a voice. My Heart held so much...like a huge vice had clamped it shut. It was nobody's fault, no one to blame, for all of those whose care I had been entrusted in had just done their best. It was their given role...to help me on my journey to uncovering the spiritual power that resided deep within. I was born with this incredible Light within me and it had become lost in the fog of conditioning by my elders and their ancestors. Finally, I hit rock bottom...the tears began to flow. You think you will die when you hit places of withheld pain inside of you...die of the tears and grief. No...You were 'dead' way before you let them flow. A river becomes stagnant and dies if it cannot flow. Let yourself become vulnerable...let the tears flow and bring your Soul to LIFE! My personal journey with processing past grief has been long – around 30 years. It has come in waves and then calm seas for a while. Then there are layers that arise, deeper and deeper. Finally a deep peace arrived about six years ago. Yet, there are still layers that arrive, more like little hiccups now. I honestly thought that it would never end - the really hard crying, but it did. Please don't compare yourself to my journey, which is a trick of the ego mind. Your journey is unique. The human psyche is a delicate thing and only when it is ready to deal with the deep grief, will it arise. There really is nothing to do, but watch when pain arises and don't try to avoid it. Sit with it and allow it to be there. Hold it in a space of Grace. There is no hard and fast formula for this journey and we are each perfectly where we are supposed to be. Grief comes along with me always and is a stamp of LOVE in my Heart forever. Grief and Love walk hand in hand. How blessed am I to have grieved for this opened my Heart to a LOVE that has no name.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 28.4.2020)
Your greatest work of HeART is...to be Peaceful & Happy. We think our purpose is to do some great deeds in the world, yet our true purpose is to be peaceful and happy. Yes! Your true purpose is to be peaceful and happy. Repeat after me...Your true purpose is to be peaceful and happy. It may well be that you do some great deeds in the world..but those deeds will be the road to take YOU towards your true purpose which is of course to be peaceful and happy! Listen to your Heart...it will guide you home to peace and happiness. It matters not what you do...it matters that you be...peaceful and happy. Your greatest gift to the world is to be peaceful and happy. YES...repeat after me, your greatest gift to the world is to be peaceful and happy. Can you imagine a world where everyone would be peaceful and happy? It is not selfish, because the more peaceful and happy you feel, the more you want to extend towards your brothers and sisters in the great big family of the Heart/World. You begin to shine a LIGHT that calls everyONE home to this birthright place of peace and happiness.
With Love, Peace and Happiness...
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 15.7.2020)
I was sitting in my Doctor's office waiting while she typed out a referral for me, when I noticed her beautiful shoes. My heart just lit up with great JOY at seeing her shiny satin pink funky shoes and I said to her: "Oh I LOVE your shoes!". She grinned widely and swung around to face me. I had to look twice at the word on the side of her shoes and I asked her: "Does that word say LOVE?" "Yes she giggled." I was gobsmacked! She told me her husband had pleaded with her several times that morning, saying to her: "Please don't wear those shoes to work. They are not suitable for your workplace." She told him it would be alright and no one would mind. JOY had arrived in my Heart as I said: "Oh please tell him how much JOY it has brought to my day and how healing that is for me!. Tell him that the world needs more lightheartedness and especially in the field of health and medicine. Tell him that we can be free spirits and we don't have to conform to the seriousness imposed on us by our culture! Tell him to stop being a JOY killer!" She giggled again! People need more JOY and less seriousness. As I write this, I think to myself that he should watch the movie "Patch Adams" which is about a Medical Doctor who brought laughter and clowning as medicine into the hospitals and clinics he served in. Gosh haven't we learned yet that laughter is the best medicine!
This visit was just a beautiful opportunity to say a final beautiful and heartfelt goodbye to this student Doctor who has cared for me with so much open-heart and LOVE for several months following my bout with Bacterial Meningitis and Septicemia. Her residency at this practice finished today. I said to her: "Thank you from my heart for all the loving care you have extended to me. Your loving kindness has made all the difference in my healing. It has been an integral part of my recovery and I am so utterly grateful that I could cry. Your careful listening and understanding has meant so much to me. Never underestimate the power of the LOVE you offer to your patients, for that is the ultimate healing medicine. Keep wearing amazing shoes as you walk with your patients, for JOY comes naturally to those who let their 'inner child' express herself. JOY is a natural result for those who extend LOVE!" I left her office feeling great JOY in my own Heart. The JOY of allowing my own 'inner child' to get excited about funky shoes! The JOY of saying what is in my Heart and extending LOVE, gratitude and deep appreciation to another Being. The JOY of seeing their Heart Light up. The JOY of communion of the Heart. It always begins with becoming innocent and childlike. Letting your JOY Spirit out to play! Go on....give it a try real soon!
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 9.7.2020)
May I never lose sight of what I AM pure LOVE and let me always be FREE to express it in my innocence and JOY! I grew tired of all the conditioning to behave in a little way - you know - be 'normal'! It really means to shrink yourself down into behaving the way others think is right for an adult. I never really had much freedom as a child. I had to use my energy to survive in the 'war zone' of my life. Always being on 'red alert' for a storm that would come out of nowhere. Ahhhh but then I fell apart as an adult, or should I say fell into a hole from which I cleverly climbed out of! I discovered my magnificence as an adult child. Born again into the JOY of being spontaneous. JOY of the Truth that I could begin again. Yesssssss! I could have the childhood I'd always dreamed of. I could let go of what I thought I had to do to fit in with the mediocre ways of the Western world in which I lived. I began to let go of the conditioning in my mind. I just woke up and began to watch my thoughts. I didn't argue with them, I just noticed that they were no longer serving me. I stopped judging them. They were not true. Just that, just watching. How simple. Then my life began to unravel. The tight knitted garment was unraveling. All the beliefs were being brought up to be seen for their insanity. I began to look in the mirror each morning and telling myself that no matter what awful things I had done to myself and others the day before, were gone. Poof! They no longer existed. Today I would begin again and I was okay right now. I did not need to judge myself or berate myself for what no longer even existed. Then I woke up and all the ways - addictions, habits, stinking thinking feel away in one miraculous moment. I 'woke up' to what I really was. It was everything. I was everything! Wow, I began to see that it was all a lucid dream. The child Spirit of JOY peeped out from the unraveled pieces of the tight knitted garment. It had hidden her JOY for so long. Then the journey 'home' to my Heart began in earnest. I couldn't live the ordinary 'little' life any more. I began an adventure of the Heart that continues to unfold in all of its miraculous and magic way. Yessssssssss - JOY is here to stay! Off to play in the dream now..........
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 4.07.2020)
Today I woke up with no fixed plans, how Divine! I have felt an incredible shift occuring in my Inner Heart space over the past few weeks and have consciously surrendered my control of life. This incredible big energy of JOY has arrived. It has felt overwhelming some days. I have really wanted to be free of my ‘controller’ energy for a VERY long time now. You know, the one that thinks it knows what’s best for me and is especially arrogant in thinking it knows what is best for others! Ha ha! I go through the necessary chores of tidying, showering, washing my clothes, making breakfast and cleaning up. I check my diary to make sure I don’t have any appointments. I have one thing I must go out to do, and that is pick up something for my granddaughter – a gifted winter jacket. Bless the generous Souls who give with no expectations of any reward and from their Hearts. I decide that I will also go to the library which is near my pick up place and return some books. That was all that was planned. It came into my mind that it would be nice to have a ‘pamper’ day. Something just for me. Next thought pops in is that one of the things I really miss is the ability to travel, have amazing adventures and encounters. The thought that followed that, was the realisation that I could be a tourist and have an adventure in my very own amazing city. I go through some ideas and then decide that I would drive along the Estuary Road. As I approach a turn off to the marina I hear a direction in my mind – turn here. I obey. I then end up at the Bouvard Marina/Dawesville Cut. It is an absolutely beautiful winter’s day with clear blue skies and no wind. The waters are still and clear. I park the car and go for a very long walk chatting to the fisherman along the way. On my way back to the car I decide I would like to have some tea and something to eat. I walk up to the restaurant/café door. It almost felt like an invisible wall hit me and I heard my Inner Heart voice say: ‘No, not here, drive to the Leprechaun café.’ I surrender to this guidance.
I get into my car and enjoy a drive along the Estuary Road taking in the beautiful scenery of the still inland waters. I arrive at the Leprechaun cafe and as I am walking towards the door to go in and order, I saw a woman sitting alone at an outside table. I felt very strongly that I knew her. Before I could even think about it, I blurted out to her: “I know you don’t I?” She responds by saying she doesn’t think so, but says that people say this to her all the time. I stop to tell her what I think this recognition is. I say: “The Heart Remembers Itself.” A kind of inner resonance when you share the same level of Heart Openness/Love/Energy. It is a connection that goes beyond appearances or intellectual understanding. As we are chatting her friend arrives and I am introduced to Vicki by Carmen. We are having a wonderful conversation and I feel so warmly welcomed into their Hearts. I found myself boldly asking: “Can I join you?” They joyfully respond with a happy “Yes of course”. What transpires between us after that is so beautiful, Divine and miraculous. These two women share deeply about their lives and loves and I about mine. It was if we had been friends for a lifetime. There was complete communion of our Hearts. We talk about our spiritual paths and our trust in God/Love. We laugh a lot as we share stories about our lives! I cheer several times for the victories of Vicki!
My words cannot convey the gratitude I feel for all that transpired today. I left Carmen and Vicki to continue their friendship meeting and both ladies were insistent that we meet again in friendship. Vicki suggested we all go to her home and she would play her baby grand piano for us. Yesssssssssssss said my Heart. Yes, yes yes! I feel like the richest little girl in town. What greater richness can one have than friendships where you are embraced with a wide open Heart and can be fully and joyfully accepted for yourself as you are.
I am so grateful that today I chose to follow the guidance of my Inner Wise Heart Self and listen to the directive of where to go and let go of my ‘controller’ Self! Look at the Miracles! I feel like a child who has just come home after a visit to the Lolly Shop!
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 2.07.2020)
On one of my walks earlier in the week I had noticed the local City was pruning all the verge trees along the road I was walking. This morning I noticed they had missed one tree! I had to walk on the road! My obsessive mind wanted it pruned to match! On my way back I had to step on the road to let Steve and his dog Moby stay on the path and duck under the unpruned tree. This was the start of our conversation, led of course by a barking song from Moby. We stopped and chatted about animals and how they react to people. Within a minute Moby was very calm. We chatted about how we all influence each other with the energy of our inner psyche. Steve had noted that Moby had become over anxious in recent time as he sensed the fearful energy of people around the Corona Virus. The conversation went deeper into how our lives are not really within our control and we are perfectly where we are supposed to be, doing what we are doing. We talked about the folly of Facebook and comparing ourselves to others. Steve then pointed out how the only tree not pruned in a very long road was perfectly imperfect, as it was the very reason we had started up a most beautiful and heartfelt conversation and connection of things that really matter. It was a gorgeous reminder for me of how much I love to move in the world and connect from the heart, so that I am reminded that we are all together in this greater scheme. It was a beautiful wake up moment for me to see how my mind deems 'imperfect pruning of trees' is actually perfect! I just loved how this this beautiful meeting happened BECAUSE of what my mind perceived as an error (lone unpruned tree)! There are no mistakes, just perfectly imperfect happenings in the greater scheme that our tiny little ego minds cannot even begin to understand their divine perfection. Ahhhhhhhh reminded to love with my own imperfection today. Thank you Steve for your gentle and patient listening Soul - that was such a gift. You have no idea of how valuable and rich a gift that is for me. Thank you Moby for reminding me that my peaceful mind is a healing gift that is the ONLY RICH thing that matters in the greater scheme of this Earthly life. Thank you unpruned tree for today's miracle meeting and reminder!
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 24.04.2020)
May the JOY of who you truly are always dance in your Heart. What you are in your essence is pure unconditional LOVE. We have all forgotten who we truly are. Over a lifetime, we are conditioned to believe in what we are told about the reality of life. It's all stories and belongs to the realm of the mind. Let the mind become quiet and the stories gently fall away to the quiet JOY of LOVE and let it become the MASTER of your life. The mind has its place, let it recede back into the role of SERVANT. Let LOVE be the MASTER of your life and then you will experience a JOY like you have never known.
I am walking down the local shopping centre mall and I spot this woman walking with a beautiful blue dress that was set against her lovely tan coloured skin. She stood out and I wanted to shout across to her: "You look beautiful in that lovely blue dress". So my thought was captured by the Universe and next thing she stopped to look at a dark dress hanging on a rack outside a dress shop and just as I passed her I found myself saying: "You don't need that dress, you are wearing a much more beautiful dress and you look fabulous in it." Christine thanked me and we began a whole conversation about life and deep matters of the Heart. I was delighted by her enthusiastic joy filled energy, which was an absolute mirror of my own. How lovely to meet myself in the mirror of another. We began talking about matters of consciousness, heart, divinity, energy and love. We talked about walking away from what is toxic, without resentment. I looked at her and told her that one of the gifts of my recent illness was learning to live in the moment and to see the absolute wonder of the life in front of me. I tell her that just seeing her, being in her presence and joining in a conscious conversation is just Heaven on Earth and it filled my heart with joy. I cannot adequately express in words the JOY of joining with my inner self appearing to me as a gorgeous Human Being and being fully present to the miracle of LOVE in that moment. We are always meeting ourselves and our own thoughts in the world of form. We hugged and said goodbye, looked at each other and we simply just had to hug again with so much laughter and joy. My ONEself turns up everywhere I go when I am in alignment with the peace and love that is my true nature. Be present in the moment, really look at what is appearing in this very moment of your life. Look from a place in your Heart and you will see that what is before you is DIVINE LOVE appearing in form. The exquisite miracle of life is mirrored to all of us in our ordinary everyday encounters if we open our Hearts and look with the eyes of LOVE. This looking brings Heaven down to Earth and it's a choice. Make your choice NOW!
My daughter visited with her precious baby Mason. He was so angelic and quietly slept the whole visit. We were chatting about him and how good he was and I say to her: "You don't have a good baby." For a moment she looks shocked and I allowed some space for that statement to go in, because I really wanted what I said next to have impact. So I say: "He has a good mother". She looks totally relieved and I put my hand on her back and tell her what a totally wonderful mother she is and how wonderful it is that she is so devoted to him. I tell her that her LOVE and devotion for him is what makes him a 'good' baby. Babies are extensions of ourselves, psychic sponges who do not yet know they are separate from us. Beautiful gifts sent from Heaven to heal us. My two 'babies' were the profound gifts that took me to another level of LOVE. A place of oneness in my own Heart and Soul. A constant demand to LOVE myself in the tiny forms that had arrived from Heaven. To be a good Mother is to simply LOVE with all your Heart. Such a beautiful day loving my grown up 'baby' and her beautiful baby. It is such a wonderful gift to have a grandson to simply LOVE and an opportunity to be a 'good' Grand Mother.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 31.7.2019)
THE 50c MIRACLE! There really is no death. Have a read of the encounter I had in an opportunity store and see that LOVE will always find a way to heal your Heart...........
I stood in the opportunity shop today having a look at the second hand books when I saw the 'Jesse' book. I really don't know why I was drawn to it and I quickly scanned through it not really sure what it was about, but I felt compelled to put it into my hands. I walked around the rest of the store and then I noticed I still had this book in my hands and wondered what it was about and why I still had it in my hands. It was if some invisible being had placed it into my hands for a reason I did not yet understand! I flicked through a few pages and then saw this exquisite image of an angel holding a baby and I just 'knew' I had to buy it. What for? I don't know. I just trusted my inner voice. I walked around the store some more and then decided that this was all I would purchase. I handed the book to the store assistant and took 50c out of my purse to give to her. She said: 'Oh... the Jesse book'. I asked if her she had read it. She held the book looking at it through misty eyes and told me that she had picked it up and was going to purchase it but changed her mind because she knew it would make her sad. I asked her why it would make her sad. She told me her son had died in a car accident at the age of 22 years. I acknowledged how painful that must have been for her and then I felt guided to say that he was still with her. She responded by saying: 'Yes, she'd had an experience that showed her clearly that he was still with her', yet she still felt sadness. It was obvious that she did not want to feel her grief and I could see she was fighting the tears back. I asked her if she would like to hear the story of the accidental death of my sister's 5 year old son that she did not fully grieve for until many years later. My sister wrote a song in 2014 about her son 'Beau'. She told me that her son 'Beau' arrived in her heart as a healing presence and he brought the music and song into her Heart. The journey of writing the song, recording it and then singing it the end of year songwriting course concert became a healing/grieving journey. The concert became a way for four sisters to come together and heal all the years of accumulated grievances. What a miracle! This beautiful nephew of mine 'Beau' was far from dead...he lives on in the Hearts of all us bringing LOVE through a song! This beautiful woman had not wanted to feel her grief and resisted buying the 'Jesse' book, but God will find a way to heal all hearts and today he used me to bring her the book and I held her hand and looked into her eyes with so much LOVE in my Heart as I reminded her again that her son is with her still. There is no death...LOVE can never die. I felt honoured to be the messenger and it humbles me to be chosen. Please listen to your inner voice even if it makes no sense and then you will becomes a miracle worker.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 21 July 2019)
This video is so utterly beautiful.... He shares how he embraced the Truth of the
FIRST STEP of the
12 TWELVE STEPS TO LOVING THE SELF.....
1. We realise that we were giving our power away to the belief that Love exists outside ourselves.
Jeff Olson's moving experience just made me cry with tears of gratitude. This man's experience of what we all are in our essence, was a beautiful validation of what I understand in my own daily walk of life. To know that we are all LOVE and it is all perfect even in its so called imperfection. To find that LOVE is only inside and it wants nothing but to be extended. To know that there really is no death.
MEETING MY MOTHER AND FATHER IN SPIRIT IN THE BULK FOOD STORE! Yesterday I am shopping for bulk food in Kakulas Brothers Perth city and find myself standing next to Clara. She has been on a working holiday in Australia and is about to return to Paris in three weeks. What a beautiful soul. I find myself asking her if she will come back to Australia and she responds by saying she doesn't think so. I respond: "You never know where life will take you, you might meet the love of your life tomorrow and everything would change." I walk around the stand behind her and then the truth dawns on my mind. I say to Clara: "You have already met the love of your life, she looks back at you in the mirror every morning." I walk back to stand beside her and share the wisdom that has taken me a lifetime to learn. I tell her that love can never be found outside of yourself.
The way to find real love and happiness is to fill your own heart until it is overflowing and you must then give that overflow of love. You then no longer need to get love - you already would have a heart that is full. Relationships are not about getting love, but giving love from a full heart. I am not talking about giving until the well runs dry! First one must work on letting go of the idea that love can be found outside of the self anywhere. It can be reflected back to you when you are open. Life always brings you a mirror of your own heart. We only ever hurt ourselves in all of our expectations of finding something outside of us to make us feel loved and happy. No one can fill the empty holes in our hearts, that is an inside job.
When Clara told me her name, my heart smiled a very wide smile, for that was my mother's first name. My mother passed away when I was only 12 years of age. Yet she turns up everywhere! There she was in the store and I got the opportunity to remind myself of real love. Right there in that precious moment, the love wisdom I offered Clara was for the ONE LOVE we all are. My mother smiles through all smiles and my heart danced yesterday to see her smile.
I finally go to the counter and purchase my bulk food and the lovely young lady serving me makes a comment about the organic Rapadura sugar I am buying. I tell her I am making a carrot cake with it for my grandson's birthday on Sunday. We start up a conversation about childhood memories of birthday cakes. I talk about the eulogy I wrote for my father's funeral service in July last year and how it was an opportunity for me to share some beautiful memories. I talk about how my father became so gracious in the last years of his life and how he thanked everyone and was so grateful for those who cared for him as he became vulnerable and dependent. He used to look into my eyes with so much Light and Love and tell me he loved me. I tell the two young ladies serving me and listening with their hearts that these memories sustain me now. One of them says: "That's so beautiful, you are making me cry." I say: "My father didn't die, he is here right now with all of that Light and Love". WOW, my Mother and my Father at Kakulas Brothers store! What a miraculous gift! And I thought I was going to buy food for just my body. Well I hadn't counted on this SOUL FOOD. My parting words were: "Tell Evan Kakulas that he employs beautiful souls!"
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 16.5.2019)
I almost needed a pair of
sunglasses to shade my eyes from the lovely light that shone from Beverley’s beautiful Being. As I walked past this store at my local shopping centre, I saw the name 'Bright Eyes’ and in my mind I heard the song ‘Bright Eyes’ by Art Garfunkel from the movie ‘Watership Down'. I sang the verse out loud to Beverley – “Bright eyes, burning like fire”. She came out of the store and we chatted about the uplifting energy that singing and music brings. I shared with her my story of how many amazing encounters I have had when I allowed the songs that come into my mind a voice! I am no singer, yet the joyful encounters I have had as a result of letting myself sing out loud have been incredibly beautiful. We can all sing even if we are not good at it! Singing is a way of joining with others that bypasses the usual conversations.
I tell her that I am often inspired by people I meet in ordinary life and have extraordinary experiences with them. We talked about the challenges that life can give us and how we can deal with them. I tell her that TRUST is the answer. T.oR.elyU.ponS.piritT.otally. When life seemingly takes things away from us, we can trust that all our needs will be met when we follow our Heart. Following our Heart may mean letting go of all that we have valued and trusting that we will find the things of true value. I chatted to Beverley about the dent I had accidentally made on my car a few days ago and she tells me she had one repaired recently and gives me the name and number of the repairer. How do I know what anything is for? What seems to be bad may lead to some extraordinary encounters. It’s only ‘bad’ if my mind wants to make it so, because the mind cannot see the larger picture. It only sees a snapshot of a tiny tick in time. Like a tiny piece in a huge puzzle that cannot even begin to show the finished image of the puzzle. I do know that singing out loud led to my having a wonderful moment of ‘real’ loving friendship with Beverley and a reminder that I am never alone. Love shines out of Bright Eyes everywhere I go when I listen to my Heart.
PS Is it a coincidence that a friend called me from interstate several hours later to tell me about a choir that she had attended today and that maybe there is a branch of them in my area? I think it’s time to sing a little more again.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 27.03.2019)
STEP ONE of 12 STEPS TO LOVING THE SELF:
We realise that we were giving our power away to the belief that Love exists outside of ourselves.
A STEP ONE STORY:
Your pain has a message for you. See it as a dear friend who loves you deeply and wants you to heal and be happy. Your birthright is happiness. When you have pain – mental, emotional or physical, it has come to tell you that you are out of alignment with your very own essence. You have separated from the pure essence of LOVE that you are. You have allowed the mind to take you away from the Truth in your Heart. It’s okay. Be with the pain, feel it fully and let it guide you to finding a way out of it. You will be shown a way if you truly want to heal. You may read something, see a video/movie, hear something on the radio/TV, meet someone and find a program/group/retreat or a friendship/relationship that will support your healing.
I love how life presents me with my pain teachers in such unexpected ways. One of my greatest pains has been giving so much of myself to others, that I left myself out of the line of loving care! My healing journey has been about coming out of unconscious doing and recognising what I have been doing and why. I began to see the ways I ‘medicated’ my pain and kept it pushed deep down. The ‘medicating’ ended up making the whole pain issue worse until eventually I woke up and said: “ENOUGH!”. That was the moment of surrender and then the doors of healing swung wide open. I never imagined the journey I would take. It wasn’t always a smooth highway, more like a very rough unsealed track with lots of potholes, stones I tripped over and little detours that led me off the healing track for a while. The biggest ‘medicating’ pain relief for me was to try and ‘save’ other people’s pain – the ‘saviour syndrome’! Of course, that’s a ploy of my mind to distract me from the real source of the pain. The pain of being disconnected from the love I am and from loving my very vulnerable humanity. Everyone else seemed more important. I was very loved by those I ‘rescued’ and that made me feel happy. I was never really happy within myself. It was all from seeking outside of myself for the LOVE that could only be found within. It was like I had turned my back on a beautiful small child and left her in the middle of New York City all alone. The one who really needed rescuing was myself.
This morning a ‘pain teacher’ arrived on my morning beach walk. He was just stepping out of the water and we greeted each other. He began chatting to me about his love of beach swimming and how he kept himself fit. He told me he was 83 years of age! I was impressed and told him that I’d seen men in their 60’s who looked like him. He threw his head back and laughed joyfully. He inspired me to keep going on my new fitness plan to stay active in my aging years. He told me that he’d had a fall a while ago from his pushbike and had injured his shoulder and it still caused him pain. That’s when my unconscious ‘saviour syndrome’ kicked in. I asked him if he’d heard of Bowen therapy. He said he hadn’t heard of it. I responded by telling him he should find himself a therapist. With that statement he said: “NO, I LIKE MY PAIN” smiled and sprinted off up the beach! LOL, I laughed inside. Once upon a time, long ago, I would have felt pain and rejection in such an instance. I recognised that I’d temporarily gone to sleep (become unconscious) and had seen the pain in someone else that I wanted to ‘fix’. The Truth is that pain is not mine to fix and I could use this energy to work on deeper pain within myself! I realised on a very deep level that some people are really comfortable with their pain. It has ‘payoffs’ for them. It gets them attention and especially attention from ‘rescuers’. They probably get a lot of their ‘neediness’ attended to and don’t have to take responsibility for themselves. I learned that I don’t need to offer advice to anyone who hasn’t asked for it. Or I could ask first: “Would you like to know how you could heal it with natural therapies?” I could check in with my own heart first before opening my mouth! My heart will always guide me as to what to say or do for anyone. I went away so very grateful for being given a ‘pain healing teacher’ in this beautiful way. My heart felt joy and gratitude. Life is always giving us exactly everything we need to heal from pain. We can choose to watch/listen/learn or NOT!
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 19.3.2019)
One word I suggest removing from your vocabulary is: 'SHOULD'. That word just makes everything wrong. It is a judgement. Judgements against yourself will keep you stuck forever. Start observing the thoughts that cross your mind. Begin saying in your mind: "I AM the ONE observing all these things happening." Once you truly begin to do this, then get up, sing and dance and celebrate that you have seen that YOU ARE THE ONE observing and not the figure acting out in this 'dream' we call life. That is what I keep doing and then bit by bit the mind changes into a much more peaceful space of acceptance. It only happens when the psyche is good and ready. Then you begin to notice that what you observe is just a bunch of old conditioned thoughts. They are not the Truth. Gradually you learn to see them for what they are and you no longer get caught up in them. Be kind, loving and forgiving for you are already PERFECTLY IMPERFECT. You are perfection playing itself out.
~Eileen Dielesen (3.3.2019)
Eileen is always inspired by the voice of Love within her. May our hearts always be joined as ONE in Love and through the words that appear on these pages may you feel the light and Love she has for you.