It has been a crazy making couple of days because I knew in my Heart that my bike search was not flowing. I have written an inspirational quote sometime ago:
"If it doesn't flow, let it go!"
Ahhhhh, but the mind can be so resistant and insist on having its own way like a petulant child! I went to a big department store and none of their bikes felt 'right'. So I went home and looked online at the bikes on offer at another department store. I took myself to the store yesterday and went away feeling crazy! I was told by a staff member that the bike on the rack was the last one available and that the next 'batch' were these bright orange bikes. I was shocked because they were a totally different brand and design. I told the staff member that it was not the same bike and she insisted that it was the same bike under a different brand. I went home looked it up online and discovered it was a totally different bike with a much cheaper price tag. I 'knew' that I had to let this store go.....but nooooooooo, the little ego 'I' wanted THAT BIKE ON THE RACK but new in a box. So I rang another branch of this store in the next town where was heading out to today for another appointment. First thing in the morning I received a text message from my daughter and after some discussion told her I was buying THAT BIKE today. She asked for an online link to it and I sent it to her. She sent me a link to another sports store in my own town telling me she'd seen a similar bike yesterday for $100 less. I 'knew' in my Heart that it was clear guidance for me and that was my bike. But again noooooooooooo, the ego wanted THAT BIKE ON THE RACK but new in a box. As I drove to the next town for my appointment, I decided I would go the department store and see if that bike was available. Same deal, nothing flowed. The staff member was completely uneducated about bikes and the one I wanted wasn't available but she said they were expecting one to be delivered today. So I said I would phone back on my way out. I made the phone call later and that is when everything went crazy in my mind and I watched as the peace seeped away as I began verbally attacking the shop assistant on the phone when she told me the delivery wouldn't be coming until late in the evening. After making a list of complaints about the poor service I saw that the little 'I' had completely taken over my mind and wanted to be right and make this store and its staff wrong! That's when I decided to terminate the phone call and say thank you to the woman. I got up went to my car and listened to my 'inner wise one' directing me to look at another bike shop on the way back. I did and there was absolutely no service - it didn't flow and I left. I headed on to the store where the bike my daughter suggested was. I walked in and saw a whole row of these bikes at a higher price than it was listed online. A lovely young man came to serve me and he checked the price and told me I would get it for the online listed discount. Not only that, but these bikes did not require assembling like the ones in the other department stores. (A huge relief for this not so handy woman!) Then I chose which one I wanted and he went out of his way to move the bikes and get the one I wanted. I thanked him for his good service. When he got the bike out I noticed the handle bars were not quite straight and he got the bike mechanic to come and adjust it for me. The two men were so helpful asking if I wanted anything else adjusted and the seat was adjusted at my request. I was so happy I thanked them both profusely. The young shop assistant said he would help me get it into my car. He helped me lay down the back seats and he tried a few times to get it in, but it was too big. Across the car park was a couple with a utility who had just loaded a bike on and the man shouted out: "Where are you going?" I told him where I lived and he said that it too far in the opposite direction. We struggled some more trying to get the bike in when I finally said: "It's not going to fit." My inner wise one said: "Ask the man with the ute if he would take $20 for petrol to deliver your bike". I boldly asked him and he smiled and said: "Okay". He followed me home and unloaded my bike. I told him and his wife the story of how I had not let go when things didn't flow and they were my two angels today. The man responded: "I was surprised that I offered to help you, because I don't normally help people"!!!!! I laughed. I said: "It's a miracle"! A miracle is a change in the mind which is reflected in the world. When I changed my mind and decided to listen to my "inner wise one" instead of acting on my little 'I' ego voice, everything flowed beautifully and I just felt so much love from everyone serving me. Another lesson in being vigilant and not letting the little 'I' ego run my life. Resistance to the guidance of my "inner wise one" just causes me untold misery, pain and suffering and basically is a waste of time and energy!
Eileen is always inspired by the voice of Love within her. May our hearts always be joined as ONE in Love and through the words that appear on these pages may you feel the light and Love she has for you.