I almost needed a pair of
sunglasses to shade my eyes from the lovely light that shone from Beverley’s beautiful Being. As I walked past this store at my local shopping centre, I saw the name 'Bright Eyes’ and in my mind I heard the song ‘Bright Eyes’ by Art Garfunkel from the movie ‘Watership Down'. I sang the verse out loud to Beverley – “Bright eyes, burning like fire”. She came out of the store and we chatted about the uplifting energy that singing and music brings. I shared with her my story of how many amazing encounters I have had when I allowed the songs that come into my mind a voice! I am no singer, yet the joyful encounters I have had as a result of letting myself sing out loud have been incredibly beautiful. We can all sing even if we are not good at it! Singing is a way of joining with others that bypasses the usual conversations.
I tell her that I am often inspired by people I meet in ordinary life and have extraordinary experiences with them. We talked about the challenges that life can give us and how we can deal with them. I tell her that TRUST is the answer. T.oR.elyU.ponS.piritT.otally. When life seemingly takes things away from us, we can trust that all our needs will be met when we follow our Heart. Following our Heart may mean letting go of all that we have valued and trusting that we will find the things of true value. I chatted to Beverley about the dent I had accidentally made on my car a few days ago and she tells me she had one repaired recently and gives me the name and number of the repairer. How do I know what anything is for? What seems to be bad may lead to some extraordinary encounters. It’s only ‘bad’ if my mind wants to make it so, because the mind cannot see the larger picture. It only sees a snapshot of a tiny tick in time. Like a tiny piece in a huge puzzle that cannot even begin to show the finished image of the puzzle. I do know that singing out loud led to my having a wonderful moment of ‘real’ loving friendship with Beverley and a reminder that I am never alone. Love shines out of Bright Eyes everywhere I go when I listen to my Heart.
PS Is it a coincidence that a friend called me from interstate several hours later to tell me about a choir that she had attended today and that maybe there is a branch of them in my area? I think it’s time to sing a little more again.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 27.03.2019)
STEP ONE of 12 STEPS TO LOVING THE SELF:
We realise that we were giving our power away to the belief that Love exists outside of ourselves.
A STEP ONE STORY:
Your pain has a message for you. See it as a dear friend who loves you deeply and wants you to heal and be happy. Your birthright is happiness. When you have pain – mental, emotional or physical, it has come to tell you that you are out of alignment with your very own essence. You have separated from the pure essence of LOVE that you are. You have allowed the mind to take you away from the Truth in your Heart. It’s okay. Be with the pain, feel it fully and let it guide you to finding a way out of it. You will be shown a way if you truly want to heal. You may read something, see a video/movie, hear something on the radio/TV, meet someone and find a program/group/retreat or a friendship/relationship that will support your healing.
I love how life presents me with my pain teachers in such unexpected ways. One of my greatest pains has been giving so much of myself to others, that I left myself out of the line of loving care! My healing journey has been about coming out of unconscious doing and recognising what I have been doing and why. I began to see the ways I ‘medicated’ my pain and kept it pushed deep down. The ‘medicating’ ended up making the whole pain issue worse until eventually I woke up and said: “ENOUGH!”. That was the moment of surrender and then the doors of healing swung wide open. I never imagined the journey I would take. It wasn’t always a smooth highway, more like a very rough unsealed track with lots of potholes, stones I tripped over and little detours that led me off the healing track for a while. The biggest ‘medicating’ pain relief for me was to try and ‘save’ other people’s pain – the ‘saviour syndrome’! Of course, that’s a ploy of my mind to distract me from the real source of the pain. The pain of being disconnected from the love I am and from loving my very vulnerable humanity. Everyone else seemed more important. I was very loved by those I ‘rescued’ and that made me feel happy. I was never really happy within myself. It was all from seeking outside of myself for the LOVE that could only be found within. It was like I had turned my back on a beautiful small child and left her in the middle of New York City all alone. The one who really needed rescuing was myself.
This morning a ‘pain teacher’ arrived on my morning beach walk. He was just stepping out of the water and we greeted each other. He began chatting to me about his love of beach swimming and how he kept himself fit. He told me he was 83 years of age! I was impressed and told him that I’d seen men in their 60’s who looked like him. He threw his head back and laughed joyfully. He inspired me to keep going on my new fitness plan to stay active in my aging years. He told me that he’d had a fall a while ago from his pushbike and had injured his shoulder and it still caused him pain. That’s when my unconscious ‘saviour syndrome’ kicked in. I asked him if he’d heard of Bowen therapy. He said he hadn’t heard of it. I responded by telling him he should find himself a therapist. With that statement he said: “NO, I LIKE MY PAIN” smiled and sprinted off up the beach! LOL, I laughed inside. Once upon a time, long ago, I would have felt pain and rejection in such an instance. I recognised that I’d temporarily gone to sleep (become unconscious) and had seen the pain in someone else that I wanted to ‘fix’. The Truth is that pain is not mine to fix and I could use this energy to work on deeper pain within myself! I realised on a very deep level that some people are really comfortable with their pain. It has ‘payoffs’ for them. It gets them attention and especially attention from ‘rescuers’. They probably get a lot of their ‘neediness’ attended to and don’t have to take responsibility for themselves. I learned that I don’t need to offer advice to anyone who hasn’t asked for it. Or I could ask first: “Would you like to know how you could heal it with natural therapies?” I could check in with my own heart first before opening my mouth! My heart will always guide me as to what to say or do for anyone. I went away so very grateful for being given a ‘pain healing teacher’ in this beautiful way. My heart felt joy and gratitude. Life is always giving us exactly everything we need to heal from pain. We can choose to watch/listen/learn or NOT!
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 19.3.2019)
One word I suggest removing from your vocabulary is: 'SHOULD'. That word just makes everything wrong. It is a judgement. Judgements against yourself will keep you stuck forever. Start observing the thoughts that cross your mind. Begin saying in your mind: "I AM the ONE observing all these things happening." Once you truly begin to do this, then get up, sing and dance and celebrate that you have seen that YOU ARE THE ONE observing and not the figure acting out in this 'dream' we call life. That is what I keep doing and then bit by bit the mind changes into a much more peaceful space of acceptance. It only happens when the psyche is good and ready. Then you begin to notice that what you observe is just a bunch of old conditioned thoughts. They are not the Truth. Gradually you learn to see them for what they are and you no longer get caught up in them. Be kind, loving and forgiving for you are already PERFECTLY IMPERFECT. You are perfection playing itself out.
~Eileen Dielesen (3.3.2019)
LOVE ARRIVES IN A FUR COAT. This morning I went to the beach for a long walk and on the way back decided to sit on the shore for a while watching the waves. Walking in front of me were a couple with a beautiful light brown and white border collie. As happens to me all the time....the dog stopped and tried to come up to me, but the woman pulled on the lead and kept on walking. I could 'feel' the dog's desire to come and shower me with LOVE. Further along the beach I noticed the woman walking back on her own and her partner was walking with the dog off the lead. Then I heard him calling 'Gypsy' and Gypsy was running towards me at break neck speed! I laughed inside, because I knew she would come and shower me with a loving big hug. I was delighted! Sure enough she nearly bowled me over and gave me an amazing big warm loving hug. My heart just danced with the JOY of LOVE being reflected back to me in the form of a fur coat! I felt honoured, seen and unconditionally loved. What a gift! The man called: 'Gypsy' and she raced back as he waved a thank you at me. I got up a short while later and saw the woman was coming back. She stopped and apologised for 'Gypsy's' behaviour. I told her I had an affinity with dogs, they always 'misbehaved' and would run up and honour me with LOVE. I told her I was honoured and she was so relieved. LOVE is everywhere. It is in YOU and when you honour what YOU ARE, then everyone and everything outside of you will begin to SHINE and bow before you in reverance to the LOVE you are. LOVE attracts LOVE.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 3.3.2019)
Life isn't always easy but you don't have to take it personally.Turn your eyes towards the LIGHT. There is always another way to view life. When things look dark and you feel pain.....then let yourself feel it fully and WATCH the story that unfolds in your mind. Don't let yourself become a victim in that story. Just watch it and remind yourself that you can just simply FEEL what you feel - sadness, anger, disappointment and hurt, but running the story is optional.
Yesterday I had the opportunity to join with 'strangers' not once, but TWICE to remind me that my stories are just that: STORIES! I make them up. In the first instance I was on a bus and a woman boarded and sat in the seat opposite me. We laughed our heads off and the bus driver joined in our conversation! I was telling them that I could make a true 'Days of Our Lives' drama story about the issues happening in my life and then I said the above words to them: "Life isn't always easy but you don't have to take it personally." I said out loud: "I like those words, I am going to write them down!" Ha ha! When the woman left the bus I wished her a magical day and she looked at me with great joy in her eyes and said: "Meeting you has already made it a magical day." The second time I was reminded when I was in a store waiting in a long queue and was chatting to the man in front of me. A woman joined the queue and I said to her: "You can join our conversation". She began by making up a story of why there was only one shop assistant serving. She had decided that all the staff had gone out to a lunch because the shop next door was also short staffed. I laughed and said that's a good story! Then the man in front of me said that he thought that a few of the staff had left early to go away for the long weekend. The woman immediately said: "I think you are on to something, that's probably it." We all laughed when I said: "That's a good story!" When I got to the front of the line another shop assistant turned up and I turned to the woman next to me and said: "She has probably just come back from the toilet!" We laughed out loud! Then the man in front of me turned to me as he was leaving and said: "You should be a writer!" I smiled and told him I was! So here it is....my writing for today! I hope you see that your stories can make you miserable or they can be seen for what they are...just stories! Turn your eyes towards the LIGHT and you will never believe your suffering stories again! You will probably end up laughing instead of crying!
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 2.03.2019)
Eileen is always inspired by the voice of Love within her. May our hearts always be joined as ONE in Love and through the words that appear on these pages may you feel the light and Love she has for you.