LET US NOT CRITICISE, JUDGE, ATTACK AND SHAME OR MAKE ANYONE ELSE WRONG INCLUDING OURSELVES....
It's always the ego's thoughts in the mind that thinks it knows what is right and wrong. Let us see the LOVE beyond the appearances. Attack NEVER ever transformed anything. The moment we attack we are at war. Wars start in the mind. We are at war with the thoughts in our own mind. Of course I am not saying be a doormat and not speak out, but please be guided by your inner voice - by your Heart and not your head. Never leave anyone and I mean anyone including yourself, out of your Heart. You may well have to close the door to having them in your life, but don't judge them and make them wrong . Just accept they came to teach you something. Some of my most powerful teachers have been the most painful of all. They taught me to see that I still believed that parts of me weren’t lovable. I carried toxic shame about my so called imperfections. What others do is none of my business. What I do is my business. Sometimes that means taking action and sometimes it means walking away and letting go. Sometimes I have to accept that I need to go away and be quiet and spend time working through feelings by myself and learning to nurture and care for myself. Learning to create an inner healthy nurturing parent for myself.
I have used relationships to try and get all my needs met, when it was never healthy nor realistic to think the other person could meet all those needs. It was not their job to meet all the needs of an insatiable needy child. It was nobody’s fault. It was not my fault. It was not my parents fault. It was now my responsibility to grow an inner nurturing and loving self that I could depend on. It was my responsibility once I became aware. It was my responsibility to forgive everyone for all the hurts I perceived they inflicted on me. It was my responsibility to accept that everyone is perfectly imperfect. It was my responsibility to finally totally forgive myself. I did not know how to act until the moment arrived. It was my responsibility to make time to sit awhile and surrender all to God/Love/Higher Power and then wait for guidance. I no longer wanted to think the little 'I know mind' was right. I waited and my answers always came. I had to learn to be patient and never act impulsively out of anger or self-righteousness, as that was always the ego mind and it usually spoke loudly and first. It was my responsibility to work through my angry feelings without projecting them onto others and blaming them for how I felt. I learned to act instead of react.
I HAVE LEARNED TO HEAL WITH……
BREATH, WAIT, PRAY, LOVE.
I still react! I am perfectly imperfect and I am beautiful as I AM. I AM LOVE and I am experiencing myself as this imperfect human and it’s a magnificent ride in all of its ups and downs.
I am on a journey ‘Home’ and we go together. HOLD MY HAND AND FORGIVE ME as I wobble my way 'home' to forgiving everyone including myself.
“WE’RE ALL JUST WALKING EACH OTHER HOME” is a wonderful quote by Ram Dass that came to mind several years ago when I thought about what happened during the phone conversation I had with the health insurance company. I wrote:
“I have moved to West Australia from Queensland and must now pay for ambulance cover. I chose a company that I thought offered a good deal and then began the challenge on the phone. I was passed from one to department to another and when the third person wanted to pass me on to someone else I felt the peace draining away and wanted to put the phone down. I realised in that moment that I had a choice to be peaceful or not and I chose peace (reluctantly!). I agreed to be transferred to a fourth person! I am so glad I did. This young man and I ended up laughing a lot over the insanity of life and at the end of the call he thanked me because up until I spoke to him he said he had been having a really crap morning and I had cheered him up. He said it was just what he needed. Do I know what anything is for???? No! One thing that stood out from this was that I was walking with my brother home to peace and JOY was the symptom that arose!”
Ahhhh The JOY of Amazing Divinely Guided Miracle Meetings!
Below is a repost of an experience I had a few years ago. It reminded me of how challenging it is to truly follow the Wholly Spirit's voice within you. That voice is available to all of us. Follow it and you will find your life changing in joyous and miraculous ways. Ignore it and you will find misery. It has been speaking to us always, but we do not always follow and that's ok too. I have been criticised, attacked and judged for sharing my Wholly Spirit guided experiences. Over time I came to let go of taking anything personally, because the ego will always rear its ugly head to keep me in its clutches of misery. There were times that I knew others were judging my sharings, but it didn't hurt me because it was between me and Wholly Spirit. Those so called judgers were the voice of ego and ego is FEAR! Fear of what others will think. Fear of being rejected. Fear of being alone. Fear of not being good enough. Fear of LOVE/GOD! Fear of happiness. Fear of JOY. Fear of.......... (add your own here)! So here is a beautiful day in my past of following the Wholly Spirit's guidance and finding happiness! I was posting my happy experiences on Facebook for 100 days and she agreed to become one day's experience story.
"I received a phone call this morning from a friend who I do not know very well, inviting me to go have a coffee and sit in the warm sun at the beach cafe. I suggested a time to meet which was perfect for the divinely orchestrated meeting we were to have. We moved a table out into the sun and when I turned around I felt this huge bubble of HAPPY rise up in my Heart when I saw Christine....she had these cute sunglasses on that matched her green top and a funky necklace and well who knows why .. but I felt so happy and told her so. I boldly asked her if I could take her picture for this 100 happy days sharing (I'm getting bolder at asking!) and she agreed immediately. We ordered our food and drinks and when we returned I decided to ask Christine to join us and she happily said: 'Yes'. The miracle was that my friend was able to give Christine so much information and a recommendation to see a health specialist, as they both had the same medical issues! Christine was so happy to find out about all these amazing treatments that had benefited my friend so much and kept saying...'It must have been meant to be, this meeting today'. My new friend was amazed by what had happened and I just said: 'Welcome to my amazing miraculous life'! I am so grateful for my spiritual path for it has given me this amazing license to spread the JOY in my Heart and let go of all inhibitions and simply TRUST the Wholly Spirit's voice within me to guide me in all of my decisions. I AM FREE!"
Love Eileen Dielesen
Eileen is always inspired by the voice of Love within her. May our hearts always be joined as ONE in Love and through the words that appear on these pages may you feel the light and Love she has for you.