It all started on a train trip when my daughter showed me a website where they sold secondhand iphones. My phone was getting old and I saw an opportunity to get a cheap solution. I asked her to show me the site on her phone and as I went to look at it, everything went weird and her phone started playing up. She was concerned that her phone was malfunctioning. I told her with great conviction and inner knowing, that her phone was fine and these things happened as a way for my inner guidance to tell me this was not the solution for me. She gave me a small questioning smile to let me know she didn't buy into my 'spiritual beliefs'. Next day I went online and found the exact phone she had shown me and my fearful voice began its guidance! Finances are tight, this is a good solution. So I go with this voice and order the online phone. Then the 'fun' began - Hell on Earth! The phone arrives a few days later in poor condition, chipped on the casing and scratched, not at all as described. I was very disappointed and then began a back and forth email correspondence for several days to finally have them agree to give me a full refund. Very frustrating because you can't even phone them! My daughter reminds me of my guidance and wonders why I didn't listen. So do I! So I pack up the damaged phone mail it back and next day my phone 'dies'. I am cut off from everything as I do my internet and all calls from this phone. So I go out and buy a cheap phone. Well that is hilarious, as it comes with no instructions. I make about three trips out to get help to set it up! My stress levels rose and my peace disappeared down the sim card nightmare. I was in hell and the fires were burning stress thoughts in my mind!
Finally I go online and order a new phone (my initial loving inner guidance!). It arrives over a week later and I find it comes with an American electrical recharger! I am frustrated. I can't get the sim card in, so another trip to the phone shop. They are so helpful and support me to set it up. I am missing a lot of my contact numbers. I need to get the backup information on my old phone which began working again the day after I bought the cheap phone! It takes me many hours and then the phone doesn't have a sound when someone calls. My daughter helps me to get it working! Phew, exhausted. Then the day arrives to go and spend a day with my family celebrating my birthday. It was a lovely day and I forget it is the day to recharge my pre-paid account! I wake up today on my birthday to find I have lost all my rollover credit. I try to phone the company and they have this new automatic system where they cut off my call and send me a text with information they think will answer my query. Finally after several phone calls I get through to a customer service person. After relaying my story, she tells me that she can't reinstate my lost credit. I stay peaceful and ask her to put me through to a supervisor. I ask the supervisor to please consider reinstating my credit because I have been having so much trouble with mobile phones and I never received their reminder text. We had a delightful conversation and he was so happy that I was being kind to him. I told him he was angel and I was so grateful. He said I was one too. How beautiful to remember our true nature and then I was in Heaven again. After the call I checked my account and found he had 'gifted' me not only by reinstating my lost credit, but giving me an extra 18GB of internet data! I wanted to cry with gratitude for this miracle. Love won in the end and I learned a valuable lesson to truly listen to my inner guidance and let go of the voice of fear! The miracle was simply a change in my mind to letting Love rule and Fear leave. What a wonderful birthday gift!
I found myself standing in front of a store that displayed some beautiful photos of incredibly amazing nature moments captured in time. For some reason I stepped in and began a conversation with the shop owner/photographer about the beautiful waterways of the area I live in. Into my mind came the thought that I should share a story about a letting go ritual I undertook several years ago in the area I lived in at that time. I undertook that ritual because I needed to let go of a painful relationship. I told the shop owner that I didn't often talk about this part of my life's story, but I felt to tell them. This inner wise voice knows who to share certain stories with and for a higher healing purpose that the little 'I' mind knows nothing about. I knew nothing about this beautiful person's past, but I had a strong hunch they would relate to my story. As soon as I mentioned the reasons why I had left this relationship, their eyes filled with tears. I silently gave thanks for the quiet voice of my Spirit that had guided me to share this story with them. They shared deeply about the pain of their childhood and the issues that tore their family apart. I felt truly humbled that they trusted me enough to share this painful part of their life story. As I left I looked back and made a comment about their beautiful Spirit who was on full display. I said that not everyone could see it, but I could see their Heart shining out through the exquisite images. The smile on their face lit up the spark of JOY in my own Heart and I felt like a thousand angels were dancing inside me. We transform our Hearts through the 'Dark Nights of our Soul', even if we don't know it. My gift in that moment was to see how beautiful that person's Heart was and how darkness can lead us back to the Light in unexpected ways. I left feeling so utterly blessed.
~Eileen Dielesen (05.04.2017)
My self esteem was fed by people loving me for what I gave them. I have now learned to say 'no'. I feel really empowered when I love myself enough to mother myself and I know that I gift everyone. People respect me more and I am only giving from a real Heart space of "YES I want to give to you because it feels good for me". If someone rejects me, then they were not a true and valuable friend and the space they leave will be filled with those who love and respect me. All I have to do is be mindful of taking care of my own happiness. If we all did that. it would be a wonderful world of happy people where no one would feel guilty for letting anyone down! We'd all be able to take care of our own happiness and respect each other. Ohhhh I DREAM......... Love from
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 04.02.2017)
Eileen is always inspired by the voice of Love within her. May our hearts always be joined as ONE in Love and through the words that appear on these pages may you feel the light and Love she has for you.