I arrived at the Doctor's Surgery for my appointment this morning and was informed that the Doctor was running about 30 minutes late. No problem I told the receptionist, I will go and do and some shopping and come back. How I love my life when I am in my 'right mind' of just being LOVE and JOY not getting upset and resisting what is happening. Everything flows joyfully! I head to the supermarket where I have an absolutely joyful chat with the young man who is packing the shelves in the fruit and vegetable section. We talk about being in the 'right mind' and how life then brings us a mirror of our mind with joyful and loving encounters with people. I only need a couple of things in the supermarket, so I have some time to just browse around the shopping centre. I find myself looking in the window of the gift store that I have walked by many times and never considered going in for a look. I heard my inner voice say: "Go in just for a look, a moment to enjoy looking at lovely things." I felt joyful at the thought of just enjoying looking! I found myself at the counter after a few minutes where I spotted a little box of Sri Chinmoy inspirational cards. These beautiful cards are offered freely and I have several at home. I pulled some out of the box to have a look and then Sue turned up in front of me and asked if she could help me. I told her I loved these little sayings and I had just come in to have a look at beautiful things. We chatted about these lovely inspirational cards and I chose one that said: "The human is me loves to live. The divine in me lives to love." Today I was loving to live so that I could share the divine love in me. Then a joyful thought arrived to extend a gift to Sue of one of my own little inspirational 'pearls of wisdom' scrolls that I freely give away. Sue was delighted and then I noticed her beautiful heart necklace. I was inspired to take a photo to share with you this ordinary moment of living in the LOVE and JOY of our birthright in the ordinary moments of a daily life. Sue left to buy herself a coffee and then I continued looking around at all the beautiful things. I spotted a little hanging angel ornament with the words written on her: "Home is where your Joy and Love is shared". Yesssssssssss it is! Home is in the place I am in any moment, where my Joy and Loved is shared. In that moment I was truly 'HOME'. Home is a place inside my mind and Heart where my true Self abides in Love and Joy. I was overcome with LOVE and JOY as the thought arrived that I could buy myself this little Angel as a gift for myself! I wanted to jump with JOY as I said out loud to Darryl who was serving at the counter that I was going to buy myself a present! I almost never buy myself 'gifts'! When I arrived at the counter, the phone rang and it was the Doctor's receptionist telling me I was next in line to see the Doctor. I was in the flow of Divine Love and Joy where life flows effortlessly and every moment is used in service to the real abiding LOVE and JOY in my mind and Heart. It is really very simple when you live like a child in the NOW moment.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 24.7.2020)
In July 2016 I had an amazing encounter with an awakened Soul and I wrote: "Life just keeps on presenting me with incredible miraculous encounters. I went to meet a future house sit owner and was introduced to Moss his live in house sitter. We had the most amazing conversation filled with the JOY of meeting a brother in the LIGHT. Moss asked me where I was from and as usual I said: 'The same place as you - Heaven!' Well that opened up Moss and he told me about his incredible healing of a serious physical ailment that happened by his walking away from the medical establishment and saying a prayer to whatever Higher Power was out there! His prayer was: "Either kill me or cure me". He received the cure which took him on a long walk with no sleep for weeks and a spiritual awakening where he recognised that there was no illness, just the perfection of what wanted to happen to transform us. He talked about the letting go of all knowledge (lies of the ego mind) and coming into a quiet mind that has only the thoughts of God. He talked about Jesus' life and was clear that he was not a Christian. He was a man who had awoken from the dream and was no longer asleep. He had come to an experience of the Truth and you can only truly understand that when you have had that. You cannot know it through knowledge. He said that you just have to look at the caterpillars - they do not have to know anything, they just go through the process and come out as a butterfly that can no longer hang out with caterpillars! I was so blessed and de-LIGHTED to meet a fellow butterfly (although my wings are still a bit stuck together!)"
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 21.7.2016)
A BEAUTIFUL MEMORY AND REMINDER THAT IT'S NOT WHAT I KNOW...BUT HOW I LIVE THAT MATTERS....
Day 154 Eileen's epic JOY JOURNEY of TRUST....a miraculous day. I received a phone call from a woman whom I have met only once a few years ago. She was listening to her inner guidance to call me. I was grateful, she is a mighty companion sent from the ONE HEART we share. We had a very long conversation and talked about what it means to BE LOVE and SEE LOVE. We talked about meeting others where they were in their own understanding. It was a lovely message that confirmed what I talked about yesterday and my commitment to the Fifth Agreement: "Be skeptical but learn to listen". I shared with her how I had met Don Miguel Ruiz who wrote the Four Agreements and the Fifth Agreement. I met him in Mexico for a retreat in 2012. That whole retreat was a wonderful experience in that I grew bored of listening to his message. That was the lesson, it was time to let go of the intellectual seeker within my mind who was trying to understand what spiritual awakening was. I recognised I was living it and I no longer needed to understand something that must be experienced. The thing that stood out with Don Miguel Ruiz was that he was a living demonstration of what that looks like. He was such a loving, gracious and humble man. In his presence you knew he was not judging you and you felt the pure presence of LOVE. A true mark of a fine spiritual teacher is one who lives what he points you towards. The best teacher is one who simply is a living example of what they teach. Like children, we copy what our parents live! Thank you Pappa Miguel Angel Ruiz.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 16.7.2016)
Today.........I choose to see only the pure heart of LOVE in everyone. It is the essence of every single one of us. We were all born pure and what happens along the way is conditioning of our minds by others and our culture. Basically we are taught how to see with a judgmental mind. We are fed stories and we believe them because we are innocent blank slates. If I want to heal, then this is the way....to see only LOVE in everything and everyone, for then I will remember that I too am LOVE and only LOVE. It is a journey of returning to the innocence I was born with. WE ARE THE ANSWER - YOU right here, right now in this very precious moment can change the world by seeing only the pure innocent LOVE behind all the seeming nightmares and problems. Look past them all - it's the only way to change the world because the world is in your conditioned mind. It is there where you 'see'. Make your vision beautiful for you do it for all of us. Do not believe in the misery, suffering and pain. This does not mean we do not offer empathy and practical help where possible. It does mean that we do not forget to see the LOVE behind all the suffering. We do not heal alone ever!
~Eileen Dielesen (Copyright 25.1.2020)
I FEARED THE GRIEF WOULD KILL ME. In truth, grief held the gold. Each tear became a river and I learned to surrender into its flow. I now ride along its tranquil water enjoying the magic scenery as I go. I cried for a very long time. I cried for all the losses in my childhood, the death of loved ones, two broken marriages and untold relationships. I cried for the lost career opportunities, the years lost to addiction and finally I cried for the loss of my Self. I am at peace now, the anxiety that pounded in my Heart was just the pain I didn't allow a space for. It held my most precious gift and I ran from it in fear. I didn't die, I gave birth to my magnificent free Self.
The road to spiritual awakening is not a smooth highway. It is full of pot holes, treacherous corners, steep curves and dangerous climbs. A human person does not awaken, it is the mind that awakens to the Truth. It is the deep attachment to the personal self and the body that needs to be let go of in order to awaken to the Truth. The attachment to the story of a personal self is the largest boulder standing in the way of the steep rise to the top of the mountain. Your mind has the power to move that boulder and when you want spiritual awakening and freedom more than anything else, you will focus the power in your mind for no other purpose. A personal self and a body will rot and die, but what you are is not this, you are pure spirit of LOVE and this is where your true JOY and abundance lies. Allow all the attachments to the things of the world to pass through you for they are mere shadows playing in the movie called 'My Life' and the projector is in your mind. When you let go of the attachments which are in your mind, there will be no images on the film and the projector will simply SHINE BRIGHT LIGHT! All the dark shadows will disappear, for they were only created by your thoughts of worldly attachments. I LOVE YOU.
~Eileen Dielesen (Copyright 4.5.2020)
‘YOUR STRENGTH LIES IN YOUR VULNERABILITY’. Many years ago I began saying to those who were seeking healing and peace of mind....'Your strength lies in your vulnerability'. We must visit the places where the feelings were never allowed a voice. My Heart held so much...like a huge vice had clamped it shut. It was nobody's fault, no one to blame, for all of those whose care I had been entrusted in had just done their best. It was their given role...to help me on my journey to uncovering the spiritual power that resided deep within. I was born with this incredible Light within me and it had become lost in the fog of conditioning by my elders and their ancestors. Finally, I hit rock bottom...the tears began to flow. You think you will die when you hit places of withheld pain inside of you...die of the tears and grief. No...You were 'dead' way before you let them flow. A river becomes stagnant and dies if it cannot flow. Let yourself become vulnerable...let the tears flow and bring your Soul to LIFE! My personal journey with processing past grief has been long – around 30 years. It has come in waves and then calm seas for a while. Then there are layers that arise, deeper and deeper. Finally a deep peace arrived about six years ago. Yet, there are still layers that arrive, more like little hiccups now. I honestly thought that it would never end - the really hard crying, but it did. Please don't compare yourself to my journey, which is a trick of the ego mind. Your journey is unique. The human psyche is a delicate thing and only when it is ready to deal with the deep grief, will it arise. There really is nothing to do, but watch when pain arises and don't try to avoid it. Sit with it and allow it to be there. Hold it in a space of Grace. There is no hard and fast formula for this journey and we are each perfectly where we are supposed to be. Grief comes along with me always and is a stamp of LOVE in my Heart forever. Grief and Love walk hand in hand. How blessed am I to have grieved for this opened my Heart to a LOVE that has no name.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 28.4.2020)
Your greatest work of HeART is...to be Peaceful & Happy. We think our purpose is to do some great deeds in the world, yet our true purpose is to be peaceful and happy. Yes! Your true purpose is to be peaceful and happy. Repeat after me...Your true purpose is to be peaceful and happy. It may well be that you do some great deeds in the world..but those deeds will be the road to take YOU towards your true purpose which is of course to be peaceful and happy! Listen to your Heart...it will guide you home to peace and happiness. It matters not what you do...it matters that you be...peaceful and happy. Your greatest gift to the world is to be peaceful and happy. YES...repeat after me, your greatest gift to the world is to be peaceful and happy. Can you imagine a world where everyone would be peaceful and happy? It is not selfish, because the more peaceful and happy you feel, the more you want to extend towards your brothers and sisters in the great big family of the Heart/World. You begin to shine a LIGHT that calls everyONE home to this birthright place of peace and happiness.
With Love, Peace and Happiness...
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 15.7.2020)
I was sitting in my Doctor's office waiting while she typed out a referral for me, when I noticed her beautiful shoes. My heart just lit up with great JOY at seeing her shiny satin pink funky shoes and I said to her: "Oh I LOVE your shoes!". She grinned widely and swung around to face me. I had to look twice at the word on the side of her shoes and I asked her: "Does that word say LOVE?" "Yes she giggled." I was gobsmacked! She told me her husband had pleaded with her several times that morning, saying to her: "Please don't wear those shoes to work. They are not suitable for your workplace." She told him it would be alright and no one would mind. JOY had arrived in my Heart as I said: "Oh please tell him how much JOY it has brought to my day and how healing that is for me!. Tell him that the world needs more lightheartedness and especially in the field of health and medicine. Tell him that we can be free spirits and we don't have to conform to the seriousness imposed on us by our culture! Tell him to stop being a JOY killer!" She giggled again! People need more JOY and less seriousness. As I write this, I think to myself that he should watch the movie "Patch Adams" which is about a Medical Doctor who brought laughter and clowning as medicine into the hospitals and clinics he served in. Gosh haven't we learned yet that laughter is the best medicine!
This visit was just a beautiful opportunity to say a final beautiful and heartfelt goodbye to this student Doctor who has cared for me with so much open-heart and LOVE for several months following my bout with Bacterial Meningitis and Septicemia. Her residency at this practice finished today. I said to her: "Thank you from my heart for all the loving care you have extended to me. Your loving kindness has made all the difference in my healing. It has been an integral part of my recovery and I am so utterly grateful that I could cry. Your careful listening and understanding has meant so much to me. Never underestimate the power of the LOVE you offer to your patients, for that is the ultimate healing medicine. Keep wearing amazing shoes as you walk with your patients, for JOY comes naturally to those who let their 'inner child' express herself. JOY is a natural result for those who extend LOVE!" I left her office feeling great JOY in my own Heart. The JOY of allowing my own 'inner child' to get excited about funky shoes! The JOY of saying what is in my Heart and extending LOVE, gratitude and deep appreciation to another Being. The JOY of seeing their Heart Light up. The JOY of communion of the Heart. It always begins with becoming innocent and childlike. Letting your JOY Spirit out to play! Go on....give it a try real soon!
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 9.7.2020)
May I never lose sight of what I AM pure LOVE and let me always be FREE to express it in my innocence and JOY! I grew tired of all the conditioning to behave in a little way - you know - be 'normal'! It really means to shrink yourself down into behaving the way others think is right for an adult. I never really had much freedom as a child. I had to use my energy to survive in the 'war zone' of my life. Always being on 'red alert' for a storm that would come out of nowhere. Ahhhh but then I fell apart as an adult, or should I say fell into a hole from which I cleverly climbed out of! I discovered my magnificence as an adult child. Born again into the JOY of being spontaneous. JOY of the Truth that I could begin again. Yesssssss! I could have the childhood I'd always dreamed of. I could let go of what I thought I had to do to fit in with the mediocre ways of the Western world in which I lived. I began to let go of the conditioning in my mind. I just woke up and began to watch my thoughts. I didn't argue with them, I just noticed that they were no longer serving me. I stopped judging them. They were not true. Just that, just watching. How simple. Then my life began to unravel. The tight knitted garment was unraveling. All the beliefs were being brought up to be seen for their insanity. I began to look in the mirror each morning and telling myself that no matter what awful things I had done to myself and others the day before, were gone. Poof! They no longer existed. Today I would begin again and I was okay right now. I did not need to judge myself or berate myself for what no longer even existed. Then I woke up and all the ways - addictions, habits, stinking thinking feel away in one miraculous moment. I 'woke up' to what I really was. It was everything. I was everything! Wow, I began to see that it was all a lucid dream. The child Spirit of JOY peeped out from the unraveled pieces of the tight knitted garment. It had hidden her JOY for so long. Then the journey 'home' to my Heart began in earnest. I couldn't live the ordinary 'little' life any more. I began an adventure of the Heart that continues to unfold in all of its miraculous and magic way. Yessssssssss - JOY is here to stay! Off to play in the dream now..........
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 4.07.2020)
Today I woke up with no fixed plans, how Divine! I have felt an incredible shift occuring in my Inner Heart space over the past few weeks and have consciously surrendered my control of life. This incredible big energy of JOY has arrived. It has felt overwhelming some days. I have really wanted to be free of my ‘controller’ energy for a VERY long time now. You know, the one that thinks it knows what’s best for me and is especially arrogant in thinking it knows what is best for others! Ha ha! I go through the necessary chores of tidying, showering, washing my clothes, making breakfast and cleaning up. I check my diary to make sure I don’t have any appointments. I have one thing I must go out to do, and that is pick up something for my granddaughter – a gifted winter jacket. Bless the generous Souls who give with no expectations of any reward and from their Hearts. I decide that I will also go to the library which is near my pick up place and return some books. That was all that was planned. It came into my mind that it would be nice to have a ‘pamper’ day. Something just for me. Next thought pops in is that one of the things I really miss is the ability to travel, have amazing adventures and encounters. The thought that followed that, was the realisation that I could be a tourist and have an adventure in my very own amazing city. I go through some ideas and then decide that I would drive along the Estuary Road. As I approach a turn off to the marina I hear a direction in my mind – turn here. I obey. I then end up at the Bouvard Marina/Dawesville Cut. It is an absolutely beautiful winter’s day with clear blue skies and no wind. The waters are still and clear. I park the car and go for a very long walk chatting to the fisherman along the way. On my way back to the car I decide I would like to have some tea and something to eat. I walk up to the restaurant/café door. It almost felt like an invisible wall hit me and I heard my Inner Heart voice say: ‘No, not here, drive to the Leprechaun café.’ I surrender to this guidance.
I get into my car and enjoy a drive along the Estuary Road taking in the beautiful scenery of the still inland waters. I arrive at the Leprechaun cafe and as I am walking towards the door to go in and order, I saw a woman sitting alone at an outside table. I felt very strongly that I knew her. Before I could even think about it, I blurted out to her: “I know you don’t I?” She responds by saying she doesn’t think so, but says that people say this to her all the time. I stop to tell her what I think this recognition is. I say: “The Heart Remembers Itself.” A kind of inner resonance when you share the same level of Heart Openness/Love/Energy. It is a connection that goes beyond appearances or intellectual understanding. As we are chatting her friend arrives and I am introduced to Vicki by Carmen. We are having a wonderful conversation and I feel so warmly welcomed into their Hearts. I found myself boldly asking: “Can I join you?” They joyfully respond with a happy “Yes of course”. What transpires between us after that is so beautiful, Divine and miraculous. These two women share deeply about their lives and loves and I about mine. It was if we had been friends for a lifetime. There was complete communion of our Hearts. We talk about our spiritual paths and our trust in God/Love. We laugh a lot as we share stories about our lives! I cheer several times for the victories of Vicki!
My words cannot convey the gratitude I feel for all that transpired today. I left Carmen and Vicki to continue their friendship meeting and both ladies were insistent that we meet again in friendship. Vicki suggested we all go to her home and she would play her baby grand piano for us. Yesssssssssssss said my Heart. Yes, yes yes! I feel like the richest little girl in town. What greater richness can one have than friendships where you are embraced with a wide open Heart and can be fully and joyfully accepted for yourself as you are.
I am so grateful that today I chose to follow the guidance of my Inner Wise Heart Self and listen to the directive of where to go and let go of my ‘controller’ Self! Look at the Miracles! I feel like a child who has just come home after a visit to the Lolly Shop!
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 2.07.2020)
Eileen is always inspired by the voice of Love within her. May our hearts always be joined as ONE in Love and through the words that appear on these pages may you feel the light and Love she has for you.