May I never lose sight of what I AM pure LOVE and let me always be FREE to express it in my innocence and JOY! I grew tired of all the conditioning to behave in a little way - you know - be 'normal'! It really means to shrink yourself down into behaving the way others think is right for an adult. I never really had much freedom as a child. I had to use my energy to survive in the 'war zone' of my life. Always being on 'red alert' for a storm that would come out of nowhere. Ahhhh but then I fell apart as an adult, or should I say fell into a hole from which I cleverly climbed out of! I discovered my magnificence as an adult child. Born again into the JOY of being spontaneous. JOY of the Truth that I could begin again. Yesssssss! I could have the childhood I'd always dreamed of. I could let go of what I thought I had to do to fit in with the mediocre ways of the Western world in which I lived. I began to let go of the conditioning in my mind. I just woke up and began to watch my thoughts. I didn't argue with them, I just noticed that they were no longer serving me. I stopped judging them. They were not true. Just that, just watching. How simple. Then my life began to unravel. The tight knitted garment was unraveling. All the beliefs were being brought up to be seen for their insanity. I began to look in the mirror each morning and telling myself that no matter what awful things I had done to myself and others the day before, were gone. Poof! They no longer existed. Today I would begin again and I was okay right now. I did not need to judge myself or berate myself for what no longer even existed. Then I woke up and all the ways - addictions, habits, stinking thinking feel away in one miraculous moment. I 'woke up' to what I really was. It was everything. I was everything! Wow, I began to see that it was all a lucid dream. The child Spirit of JOY peeped out from the unraveled pieces of the tight knitted garment. It had hidden her JOY for so long. Then the journey 'home' to my Heart began in earnest. I couldn't live the ordinary 'little' life any more. I began an adventure of the Heart that continues to unfold in all of its miraculous and magic way. Yessssssssss - JOY is here to stay! Off to play in the dream now..........
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 4.07.2020)
Eileen is always inspired by the voice of Love within her. May our hearts always be joined as ONE in Love and through the words that appear on these pages may you feel the light and Love she has for you.