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Lonely for my own SPIRIT!

3/10/2017

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People think that because I am an extrovert and engage easily with others, I never feel lonely. I honestly think it is a part of the human condition and it stems from a disconnect with our inner lives. If you look at the indigenous people they spend a great deal of time doing inner work in community gatherings! Do we do that in our western culture? Most of us spend a lot of time in our suburban boxes closed off from each other, which is a reflection of our lack of a rich inner life and relationship with ourselves. I remember several years ago the surprised reaction of one woman when I shared with her about my childhood and how lonely I had felt. She has assumed that because I'd grown up in a family with five siblings I would never have felt that way. She thought that loneliness had something to do with numbers of people around you. I grew up in that era where 'children were seen and not heard'. I was constantly being told to 'get outside and play' when I tried to connect to my parents and other adults. I felt very 'invisible' and so I just shut down and lost all confidence. I appeared to be very shy, but in truth I had just turned inwards away from the world because it offered me nothing. It has been a long journey reclaiming my right to be 'visible' and to build my confidence and self love. I had to learn to 'parent' myself and then the feelings of loneliness began to diminish. They have not disappeared completely and come to visit from time to time as an old story that likes to play in my mind and keep me miserable! There really is nothing in the world that can offer me a solution to the so called 'problem' of loneliness. It is an illusion to think the solution is 'out there'. It must be an entirely inner journey and as I constantly and vigilantly watch my mind and connect to my Higher Power/Source/God of my understanding, then the world seems to change 'out there'. All along I was simply lonely for my very own Spirit and I am grateful for the lessons that my parents and other adults brought, that forced me inwards to develop the only real relationship that will ever satisfy my yearning. Everything we seek for exists inside of us. Reconnect to who you are inside and you will discover the greatest peace, freedom and joy that you sought for outside of yourself. 

​~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 10.3.2017)


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angie
3/10/2017 09:43:22 am

Hi sweetie, thank you for the wonderful sharing. I felt the same as you when I was growing up. I was always looking out there for love however since starting my spiritual journey I now go within and have found love and all my answers there.
My journey this moment is quite challenging as the body has been diagnosed with a disease. However this hasn't stopped me from spreading love wherever I go. I made a commitment to HS to be of service and I treasure and an grateful for every step the body is able to take. I am also grateful for all those people who HS places in front of me for me.
Love to all xoxo 💝

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Eileen link
3/10/2017 11:42:05 am

Hi Beautiful Angie,
Thank you so much for taking the time to share your story. So wonderful to read that you have found the only LOVE there is. Sometimes life hands us challenges such as you are experiencing with your body. I prefer to see that these challenges offer me opportunities to go very deep inside. I suffered terribly in the past with painful feet and could only walk short distances. I prayed for understanding of 'why'? The answer was always the same, to STOP me distracting from the inner work that needed to be done. Amazingly I was forced to sit...for a long, long time. I used that time to process some more layers of my 'pain body' and the tears flowed like a river. Eventually I was led to a practitioner who was able to help me with my foot pain. It was all perfect divine timing. All is perfection as it is. It was always the resistance that caused me the pain. How absolutely beautiful that in spite of your struggles you have still been able to extend LOVE. All the people HS places in front of you are the pieces of you asking for LOVE. As you LOVE others, your mind heals and then whatever the body does no longer matters. Peace of mind is everything. Bless you and may Peace, Love and Joy always sing in your mind and Heart.
With Love all ways

Eileen

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