May I never lose sight of what I AM pure LOVE and let me always be FREE to express it in my innocence and JOY! I grew tired of all the conditioning to behave in a little way - you know - be 'normal'! It really means to shrink yourself down into behaving the way others think is right for an adult. I never really had much freedom as a child. I had to use my energy to survive in the 'war zone' of my life. Always being on 'red alert' for a storm that would come out of nowhere. Ahhhh but then I fell apart as an adult, or should I say fell into a hole from which I cleverly climbed out of! I discovered my magnificence as an adult child. Born again into the JOY of being spontaneous. JOY of the Truth that I could begin again. Yesssssss! I could have the childhood I'd always dreamed of. I could let go of what I thought I had to do to fit in with the mediocre ways of the Western world in which I lived. I began to let go of the conditioning in my mind. I just woke up and began to watch my thoughts. I didn't argue with them, I just noticed that they were no longer serving me. I stopped judging them. They were not true. Just that, just watching. How simple. Then my life began to unravel. The tight knitted garment was unraveling. All the beliefs were being brought up to be seen for their insanity. I began to look in the mirror each morning and telling myself that no matter what awful things I had done to myself and others the day before, were gone. Poof! They no longer existed. Today I would begin again and I was okay right now. I did not need to judge myself or berate myself for what no longer even existed. Then I woke up and all the ways - addictions, habits, stinking thinking feel away in one miraculous moment. I 'woke up' to what I really was. It was everything. I was everything! Wow, I began to see that it was all a lucid dream. The child Spirit of JOY peeped out from the unraveled pieces of the tight knitted garment. It had hidden her JOY for so long. Then the journey 'home' to my Heart began in earnest. I couldn't live the ordinary 'little' life any more. I began an adventure of the Heart that continues to unfold in all of its miraculous and magic way. Yessssssssss - JOY is here to stay! Off to play in the dream now..........
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 4.07.2020)
Today I woke up with no fixed plans, how Divine! I have felt an incredible shift occuring in my Inner Heart space over the past few weeks and have consciously surrendered my control of life. This incredible big energy of JOY has arrived. It has felt overwhelming some days. I have really wanted to be free of my ‘controller’ energy for a VERY long time now. You know, the one that thinks it knows what’s best for me and is especially arrogant in thinking it knows what is best for others! Ha ha! I go through the necessary chores of tidying, showering, washing my clothes, making breakfast and cleaning up. I check my diary to make sure I don’t have any appointments. I have one thing I must go out to do, and that is pick up something for my granddaughter – a gifted winter jacket. Bless the generous Souls who give with no expectations of any reward and from their Hearts. I decide that I will also go to the library which is near my pick up place and return some books. That was all that was planned. It came into my mind that it would be nice to have a ‘pamper’ day. Something just for me. Next thought pops in is that one of the things I really miss is the ability to travel, have amazing adventures and encounters. The thought that followed that, was the realisation that I could be a tourist and have an adventure in my very own amazing city. I go through some ideas and then decide that I would drive along the Estuary Road. As I approach a turn off to the marina I hear a direction in my mind – turn here. I obey. I then end up at the Bouvard Marina/Dawesville Cut. It is an absolutely beautiful winter’s day with clear blue skies and no wind. The waters are still and clear. I park the car and go for a very long walk chatting to the fisherman along the way. On my way back to the car I decide I would like to have some tea and something to eat. I walk up to the restaurant/café door. It almost felt like an invisible wall hit me and I heard my Inner Heart voice say: ‘No, not here, drive to the Leprechaun café.’ I surrender to this guidance.
I get into my car and enjoy a drive along the Estuary Road taking in the beautiful scenery of the still inland waters. I arrive at the Leprechaun cafe and as I am walking towards the door to go in and order, I saw a woman sitting alone at an outside table. I felt very strongly that I knew her. Before I could even think about it, I blurted out to her: “I know you don’t I?” She responds by saying she doesn’t think so, but says that people say this to her all the time. I stop to tell her what I think this recognition is. I say: “The Heart Remembers Itself.” A kind of inner resonance when you share the same level of Heart Openness/Love/Energy. It is a connection that goes beyond appearances or intellectual understanding. As we are chatting her friend arrives and I am introduced to Vicki by Carmen. We are having a wonderful conversation and I feel so warmly welcomed into their Hearts. I found myself boldly asking: “Can I join you?” They joyfully respond with a happy “Yes of course”. What transpires between us after that is so beautiful, Divine and miraculous. These two women share deeply about their lives and loves and I about mine. It was if we had been friends for a lifetime. There was complete communion of our Hearts. We talk about our spiritual paths and our trust in God/Love. We laugh a lot as we share stories about our lives! I cheer several times for the victories of Vicki!
My words cannot convey the gratitude I feel for all that transpired today. I left Carmen and Vicki to continue their friendship meeting and both ladies were insistent that we meet again in friendship. Vicki suggested we all go to her home and she would play her baby grand piano for us. Yesssssssssssss said my Heart. Yes, yes yes! I feel like the richest little girl in town. What greater richness can one have than friendships where you are embraced with a wide open Heart and can be fully and joyfully accepted for yourself as you are.
I am so grateful that today I chose to follow the guidance of my Inner Wise Heart Self and listen to the directive of where to go and let go of my ‘controller’ Self! Look at the Miracles! I feel like a child who has just come home after a visit to the Lolly Shop!
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 2.07.2020)
On one of my walks earlier in the week I had noticed the local City was pruning all the verge trees along the road I was walking. This morning I noticed they had missed one tree! I had to walk on the road! My obsessive mind wanted it pruned to match! On my way back I had to step on the road to let Steve and his dog Moby stay on the path and duck under the unpruned tree. This was the start of our conversation, led of course by a barking song from Moby. We stopped and chatted about animals and how they react to people. Within a minute Moby was very calm. We chatted about how we all influence each other with the energy of our inner psyche. Steve had noted that Moby had become over anxious in recent time as he sensed the fearful energy of people around the Corona Virus. The conversation went deeper into how our lives are not really within our control and we are perfectly where we are supposed to be, doing what we are doing. We talked about the folly of Facebook and comparing ourselves to others. Steve then pointed out how the only tree not pruned in a very long road was perfectly imperfect, as it was the very reason we had started up a most beautiful and heartfelt conversation and connection of things that really matter. It was a gorgeous reminder for me of how much I love to move in the world and connect from the heart, so that I am reminded that we are all together in this greater scheme. It was a beautiful wake up moment for me to see how my mind deems 'imperfect pruning of trees' is actually perfect! I just loved how this this beautiful meeting happened BECAUSE of what my mind perceived as an error (lone unpruned tree)! There are no mistakes, just perfectly imperfect happenings in the greater scheme that our tiny little ego minds cannot even begin to understand their divine perfection. Ahhhhhhhh reminded to love with my own imperfection today. Thank you Steve for your gentle and patient listening Soul - that was such a gift. You have no idea of how valuable and rich a gift that is for me. Thank you Moby for reminding me that my peaceful mind is a healing gift that is the ONLY RICH thing that matters in the greater scheme of this Earthly life. Thank you unpruned tree for today's miracle meeting and reminder!
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 24.04.2020)
May the JOY of who you truly are always dance in your Heart. What you are in your essence is pure unconditional LOVE. We have all forgotten who we truly are. Over a lifetime, we are conditioned to believe in what we are told about the reality of life. It's all stories and belongs to the realm of the mind. Let the mind become quiet and the stories gently fall away to the quiet JOY of LOVE and let it become the MASTER of your life. The mind has its place, let it recede back into the role of SERVANT. Let LOVE be the MASTER of your life and then you will experience a JOY like you have never known.
I am walking down the local shopping centre mall and I spot this woman walking with a beautiful blue dress that was set against her lovely tan coloured skin. She stood out and I wanted to shout across to her: "You look beautiful in that lovely blue dress". So my thought was captured by the Universe and next thing she stopped to look at a dark dress hanging on a rack outside a dress shop and just as I passed her I found myself saying: "You don't need that dress, you are wearing a much more beautiful dress and you look fabulous in it." Christine thanked me and we began a whole conversation about life and deep matters of the Heart. I was delighted by her enthusiastic joy filled energy, which was an absolute mirror of my own. How lovely to meet myself in the mirror of another. We began talking about matters of consciousness, heart, divinity, energy and love. We talked about walking away from what is toxic, without resentment. I looked at her and told her that one of the gifts of my recent illness was learning to live in the moment and to see the absolute wonder of the life in front of me. I tell her that just seeing her, being in her presence and joining in a conscious conversation is just Heaven on Earth and it filled my heart with joy. I cannot adequately express in words the JOY of joining with my inner self appearing to me as a gorgeous Human Being and being fully present to the miracle of LOVE in that moment. We are always meeting ourselves and our own thoughts in the world of form. We hugged and said goodbye, looked at each other and we simply just had to hug again with so much laughter and joy. My ONEself turns up everywhere I go when I am in alignment with the peace and love that is my true nature. Be present in the moment, really look at what is appearing in this very moment of your life. Look from a place in your Heart and you will see that what is before you is DIVINE LOVE appearing in form. The exquisite miracle of life is mirrored to all of us in our ordinary everyday encounters if we open our Hearts and look with the eyes of LOVE. This looking brings Heaven down to Earth and it's a choice. Make your choice NOW!
My daughter visited with her precious baby Mason. He was so angelic and quietly slept the whole visit. We were chatting about him and how good he was and I say to her: "You don't have a good baby." For a moment she looks shocked and I allowed some space for that statement to go in, because I really wanted what I said next to have impact. So I say: "He has a good mother". She looks totally relieved and I put my hand on her back and tell her what a totally wonderful mother she is and how wonderful it is that she is so devoted to him. I tell her that her LOVE and devotion for him is what makes him a 'good' baby. Babies are extensions of ourselves, psychic sponges who do not yet know they are separate from us. Beautiful gifts sent from Heaven to heal us. My two 'babies' were the profound gifts that took me to another level of LOVE. A place of oneness in my own Heart and Soul. A constant demand to LOVE myself in the tiny forms that had arrived from Heaven. To be a good Mother is to simply LOVE with all your Heart. Such a beautiful day loving my grown up 'baby' and her beautiful baby. It is such a wonderful gift to have a grandson to simply LOVE and an opportunity to be a 'good' Grand Mother.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 31.7.2019)
THE 50c MIRACLE! There really is no death. Have a read of the encounter I had in an opportunity store and see that LOVE will always find a way to heal your Heart...........
I stood in the opportunity shop today having a look at the second hand books when I saw the 'Jesse' book. I really don't know why I was drawn to it and I quickly scanned through it not really sure what it was about, but I felt compelled to put it into my hands. I walked around the rest of the store and then I noticed I still had this book in my hands and wondered what it was about and why I still had it in my hands. It was if some invisible being had placed it into my hands for a reason I did not yet understand! I flicked through a few pages and then saw this exquisite image of an angel holding a baby and I just 'knew' I had to buy it. What for? I don't know. I just trusted my inner voice. I walked around the store some more and then decided that this was all I would purchase. I handed the book to the store assistant and took 50c out of my purse to give to her. She said: 'Oh... the Jesse book'. I asked if her she had read it. She held the book looking at it through misty eyes and told me that she had picked it up and was going to purchase it but changed her mind because she knew it would make her sad. I asked her why it would make her sad. She told me her son had died in a car accident at the age of 22 years. I acknowledged how painful that must have been for her and then I felt guided to say that he was still with her. She responded by saying: 'Yes, she'd had an experience that showed her clearly that he was still with her', yet she still felt sadness. It was obvious that she did not want to feel her grief and I could see she was fighting the tears back. I asked her if she would like to hear the story of the accidental death of my sister's 5 year old son that she did not fully grieve for until many years later. My sister wrote a song in 2014 about her son 'Beau'. She told me that her son 'Beau' arrived in her heart as a healing presence and he brought the music and song into her Heart. The journey of writing the song, recording it and then singing it the end of year songwriting course concert became a healing/grieving journey. The concert became a way for four sisters to come together and heal all the years of accumulated grievances. What a miracle! This beautiful nephew of mine 'Beau' was far from dead...he lives on in the Hearts of all us bringing LOVE through a song! This beautiful woman had not wanted to feel her grief and resisted buying the 'Jesse' book, but God will find a way to heal all hearts and today he used me to bring her the book and I held her hand and looked into her eyes with so much LOVE in my Heart as I reminded her again that her son is with her still. There is no death...LOVE can never die. I felt honoured to be the messenger and it humbles me to be chosen. Please listen to your inner voice even if it makes no sense and then you will becomes a miracle worker.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 21 July 2019)
This video is so utterly beautiful.... He shares how he embraced the Truth of the
FIRST STEP of the
12 TWELVE STEPS TO LOVING THE SELF.....
1. We realise that we were giving our power away to the belief that Love exists outside ourselves.
Jeff Olson's moving experience just made me cry with tears of gratitude. This man's experience of what we all are in our essence, was a beautiful validation of what I understand in my own daily walk of life. To know that we are all LOVE and it is all perfect even in its so called imperfection. To find that LOVE is only inside and it wants nothing but to be extended. To know that there really is no death.
MEETING MY MOTHER AND FATHER IN SPIRIT IN THE BULK FOOD STORE! Yesterday I am shopping for bulk food in Kakulas Brothers Perth city and find myself standing next to Clara. She has been on a working holiday in Australia and is about to return to Paris in three weeks. What a beautiful soul. I find myself asking her if she will come back to Australia and she responds by saying she doesn't think so. I respond: "You never know where life will take you, you might meet the love of your life tomorrow and everything would change." I walk around the stand behind her and then the truth dawns on my mind. I say to Clara: "You have already met the love of your life, she looks back at you in the mirror every morning." I walk back to stand beside her and share the wisdom that has taken me a lifetime to learn. I tell her that love can never be found outside of yourself.
The way to find real love and happiness is to fill your own heart until it is overflowing and you must then give that overflow of love. You then no longer need to get love - you already would have a heart that is full. Relationships are not about getting love, but giving love from a full heart. I am not talking about giving until the well runs dry! First one must work on letting go of the idea that love can be found outside of the self anywhere. It can be reflected back to you when you are open. Life always brings you a mirror of your own heart. We only ever hurt ourselves in all of our expectations of finding something outside of us to make us feel loved and happy. No one can fill the empty holes in our hearts, that is an inside job.
When Clara told me her name, my heart smiled a very wide smile, for that was my mother's first name. My mother passed away when I was only 12 years of age. Yet she turns up everywhere! There she was in the store and I got the opportunity to remind myself of real love. Right there in that precious moment, the love wisdom I offered Clara was for the ONE LOVE we all are. My mother smiles through all smiles and my heart danced yesterday to see her smile.
I finally go to the counter and purchase my bulk food and the lovely young lady serving me makes a comment about the organic Rapadura sugar I am buying. I tell her I am making a carrot cake with it for my grandson's birthday on Sunday. We start up a conversation about childhood memories of birthday cakes. I talk about the eulogy I wrote for my father's funeral service in July last year and how it was an opportunity for me to share some beautiful memories. I talk about how my father became so gracious in the last years of his life and how he thanked everyone and was so grateful for those who cared for him as he became vulnerable and dependent. He used to look into my eyes with so much Light and Love and tell me he loved me. I tell the two young ladies serving me and listening with their hearts that these memories sustain me now. One of them says: "That's so beautiful, you are making me cry." I say: "My father didn't die, he is here right now with all of that Light and Love". WOW, my Mother and my Father at Kakulas Brothers store! What a miraculous gift! And I thought I was going to buy food for just my body. Well I hadn't counted on this SOUL FOOD. My parting words were: "Tell Evan Kakulas that he employs beautiful souls!"
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 16.5.2019)
I almost needed a pair of
sunglasses to shade my eyes from the lovely light that shone from Beverley’s beautiful Being. As I walked past this store at my local shopping centre, I saw the name 'Bright Eyes’ and in my mind I heard the song ‘Bright Eyes’ by Art Garfunkel from the movie ‘Watership Down'. I sang the verse out loud to Beverley – “Bright eyes, burning like fire”. She came out of the store and we chatted about the uplifting energy that singing and music brings. I shared with her my story of how many amazing encounters I have had when I allowed the songs that come into my mind a voice! I am no singer, yet the joyful encounters I have had as a result of letting myself sing out loud have been incredibly beautiful. We can all sing even if we are not good at it! Singing is a way of joining with others that bypasses the usual conversations.
I tell her that I am often inspired by people I meet in ordinary life and have extraordinary experiences with them. We talked about the challenges that life can give us and how we can deal with them. I tell her that TRUST is the answer. T.oR.elyU.ponS.piritT.otally. When life seemingly takes things away from us, we can trust that all our needs will be met when we follow our Heart. Following our Heart may mean letting go of all that we have valued and trusting that we will find the things of true value. I chatted to Beverley about the dent I had accidentally made on my car a few days ago and she tells me she had one repaired recently and gives me the name and number of the repairer. How do I know what anything is for? What seems to be bad may lead to some extraordinary encounters. It’s only ‘bad’ if my mind wants to make it so, because the mind cannot see the larger picture. It only sees a snapshot of a tiny tick in time. Like a tiny piece in a huge puzzle that cannot even begin to show the finished image of the puzzle. I do know that singing out loud led to my having a wonderful moment of ‘real’ loving friendship with Beverley and a reminder that I am never alone. Love shines out of Bright Eyes everywhere I go when I listen to my Heart.
PS Is it a coincidence that a friend called me from interstate several hours later to tell me about a choir that she had attended today and that maybe there is a branch of them in my area? I think it’s time to sing a little more again.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 27.03.2019)
Eileen is always inspired by the voice of Love within her. May our hearts always be joined as ONE in Love and through the words that appear on these pages may you feel the light and Love she has for you.