‘YOUR STRENGTH LIES IN YOUR VULNERABILITY’. Many years ago I began saying to those who were seeking healing and peace of mind....'Your strength lies in your vulnerability'. We must visit the places where the feelings were never allowed a voice. My Heart held so much...like a huge vice had clamped it shut. It was nobody's fault, no one to blame, for all of those whose care I had been entrusted in had just done their best. It was their given role...to help me on my journey to uncovering the spiritual power that resided deep within. I was born with this incredible Light within me and it had become lost in the fog of conditioning by my elders and their ancestors. Finally, I hit rock bottom...the tears began to flow. You think you will die when you hit places of withheld pain inside of you...die of the tears and grief. No...You were 'dead' way before you let them flow. A river becomes stagnant and dies if it cannot flow. Let yourself become vulnerable...let the tears flow and bring your Soul to LIFE! My personal journey with processing past grief has been long – around 30 years. It has come in waves and then calm seas for a while. Then there are layers that arise, deeper and deeper. Finally a deep peace arrived about six years ago. Yet, there are still layers that arrive, more like little hiccups now. I honestly thought that it would never end - the really hard crying, but it did. Please don't compare yourself to my journey, which is a trick of the ego mind. Your journey is unique. The human psyche is a delicate thing and only when it is ready to deal with the deep grief, will it arise. There really is nothing to do, but watch when pain arises and don't try to avoid it. Sit with it and allow it to be there. Hold it in a space of Grace. There is no hard and fast formula for this journey and we are each perfectly where we are supposed to be. Grief comes along with me always and is a stamp of LOVE in my Heart forever. Grief and Love walk hand in hand. How blessed am I to have grieved for this opened my Heart to a LOVE that has no name.
~Eileen Dielesen (copyright 28.4.2020)
Eileen is always inspired by the voice of Love within her. May our hearts always be joined as ONE in Love and through the words that appear on these pages may you feel the light and Love she has for you.